? Monday, February 8, 2010
Seriously i got STM. Thur n fri wat happen, i really forget liao. why i rmb wed happen de things coz i write it in my notebk tat time.
Now is midnite 1216am Monday. i can only recall wat happen ytd n today.
Let me tok abt ytd so called old fam outing ba.
Total gt 8ppl including me.
Inside i only noe n seen jie n kaze. the rest duno liao...
Mit 12plus at marina. i was really kj to mit new frenz actually de. i think my gut really gone diao, over tis 2yrs in admin industry.
Mit jie 1st den go walk arn at marina.
Meet up with them le! seeing them, i dun feel kj liao.. duno y~ all of them r nice ppl. funny also. i thnk among them, i tok to jie the most bah, follow by kaze. lol, the rest i duno wat to tok abt also. thy seems to noe each other very long liao...
Went to the duno wat Irish pub eat lunch? lol, i 1st time afternoon timing step inside a pub. is my first time sia. normally i go pub is nite? haha, thy really cute. den 1st time i go pub drink ice lemon tea? haha, really cute dee. my first time given to them liao ;shy
After eat, go arcade. meanwhile some of them play pool/billard.
After tat go eat swensen ice cream. LOL, think of it, i everytime go out wif jie, sure gt swensen de sia. faint, den sure gt my mint ice cream de sia. lol, faint.
Everything ends arn 6plus? den after tat jie kip say go where sia. i ask her think she say duno. i say go sentosa, go vivo she ask me for wat. ;wild
say liao she hiam tis hiam tat, nv say she jiu ask me go where. really tu xue. lol
in the end i say go chinatown see my kitty. ;shy
kaze bring us walk frm marina to chinatown. lol... think of it, everytime go out wif jie, sure nd to walk a longgggggggg way de. haha
FInally reach chinatown point le! wee, tat kaze really nice, pei us walk there.
Then we found the kitty shop, wee!! happy sia. den see gt wat special kitty things. i dun intend to buy anything de, coz kitty things is really ex. small keychain cost more than $10++. then jie saw a cow kitty, can make into hp keychain. den she ask me wan ma, i say ok lo...
i noe she wan find a keychain for me to hang on my hp. duno issit last time i told her, i dun anyhow hang things at my hp, except for dajie, her or jes de nia. the rest i dun hang at my hp. den i duno issit tat time gt hint her, i waiting for her to buy me one to hang. tats y she kip finding for me? i not sure la. but anyway, she buy me a kitty keychain. small n cutie~~ shy. i love it alot. now my hp got dajie n erjie gif me de keychain liao. 2 cows. haha. is always with me de, coz my hp seldom leave far frm me. ^_^ tats y i reply ppl sms fast. LOL shy
After tat, i find it stil early, coz is sat mah, i dun like go hm early also, go hm also nth to do. so drag jie go walk. den go buy beads. After tat i ask jie bring me go those parsa malam. cny everytime gt de.
Den hor, really faint sia. ALOT of ppl sia. faint. i c the ppl my heart pump very fast, coz i scare i lost.LOL, funny rite? but is true lor...
Actually i gt one weird thingy. if im in a mrt or bus or very crowded de area, i can't breath well. especially in MRT. coz whn everyone is standing so close tgt, i find it hard to breath properly. duno issit a sickness or wat :( tats y sometimes i prefer go the longer way.
Then whn i see those crowd, 1st thing i think is to grab her liao. haha, i really scare lost... coz wif dad, mum or sis, i auto will hold their hands whn in crowded area. lol, lucky jie noe my pattern liao if not i really kana squeeze til where liao. haha
after so many yrs, i think gt at least 4-5yrs, i nv been to chinatown de parsa malam liao (pre cny). im really happy er jie bring me go...
After "squeeze wif crowd", jie bring me go a hawker eat laksa! weee, i say so long de laksa, finally eat liao. keke... think of it, she funny la. say gt one katong laksa, den go search for some time liao, finally found it liao, BUT store close. LOL, see her expression -_-" i really wan laugh. haha, but xin ku her la, help me find the delicious katong laksa, although i nv get to eat it, but im really appreaciate. i ask her wat is tis hawker call, n she can tell me chinatown hawker?
really faint si wo. haha, she really lame~ =x
After eat we jiu slowly make our way back le. on the way back, i see those ba gua, wahhhh, all crowded de sia. so many ppl Q-ing to buy. but jie told me tis yr they nv buy, coz ex.
1kg $40plus huh. ex mah? i duno also, coz i seldom eat ba gua.
Finally reach hm le, i reach at arn 11pm. den i think jie reach arn 1130? she say her mum nag at her. i was guessing probably coz she go out whole day, den go hm late bah. n true lo, i ask her issit she go out late, she say ya, part of it lo. :(
really ps make er jie go hm late, coz i drag her go chinatown shop. i noe her mum also worried for her, coz she seldom go out whole day den reach hm late bah...
for me is diff, sometimes whn i reach hm late, i wun be surprise to see my family all go slp liao, only whn i open door den mum wake up nia. sometimes i feel i really nv think for jie bah. kip ask her go out til so late. she is always those homely person, seldom go out tat often, n late de bah.
For me, my parents gif up on me liao, lol, last time thy kip ask me dun go out late or watever, i nv care also. i jus tell them, i gg out wif frenz, wun be early, or duno wat time will reach hm. dun nd wait for me.
sometimes i will jus tel them i go drinking n clubbing wif frens, wun be hm early, earliest i think is 2am bah. lolsss... tat time i rmb, my drinking kakis hear me tell my mum so direct, thy shock also. i dun like to bluff mah, gt wat jiu say wat lo, if thy dun let me go, i also will go de. LOL, my parents really cannot tahan me... :(
thy say me until mai say liao... last time i reach hm at 3-4am(latest is 5am bah). although daddy will say abit, he will tel mummy to tell me, he nv tell me straight also. but he noe i wun care also.
i wan do de things i jiu wan. although last time i gt drink until puke like duno wat, gt incident where i tot i lost my wallet, make til my parents nd to help me wif it. thy also nv scold me at all.
Deep down, i noe their gd meant also.
Suddnely i rmb, i ask jie before. issit good or bad tat she met me?
she nv gif me a ans whn i ask her. she jus kip laugh. den i tel her i sad liao, coz if now she ask me mit her is good or bad, i will straight gt an definite ans. n my reply will be good.
in the end she tell me she nv regret knowing me. wah, i really gandong upon seeing tis.
den in my heart i was thinking. i also nv regret knowing her, but i regret quarraling with her :(
She is really a nice person overall. someone who dote on me alot. someone who gif in to me alot, someone who seldom voice out her unhappy towards me, someone who forgive n forget.
Seeing her, i kip thinking, am i really a petty person? m i really someone who hold grudges? m i someone who forgive but nv forget?
I think in many ppl's eye, yes, janice is tis type of person. thru conversation wif some ppl, i can feel which type of person in their eye. although thy wun say out, but can see. actually i dun deserve ppl kind treatment. coz i nv do well or enuff for other ppl also.
Although every relationships, i put in alot. colleagues, frenz, bgr.
ppl always remind me not to put in too much at a time, i can say ok, i wun. but i can't do it. Put in too much, if things goes wrong, the impact back will hurt alot alot...
I nv regret treating ppl gd, i nv regret trusting ppl so much, i nv regret knowing anyone, i nv regret doing anything for anyone...
I appreciate. Some ppl let me see their true colors, some ppl let me see their nice side, some their ugly side, some their innocent side, some their selfish side. i hurt ppl before, n i expect to get it back one day also. coz gt retribution de mah, i believe de.
No matter wat. i nv regret the things i do, since the 1st day, i make friends wif ppl. which is.... kindergarden? or start frm pri sch bah... i stil haf memory whn im in pri sch. Seriously, i really rmb, who treat me gd, who treat me bad, who left me alone, who pei me. all inside my mind....
every stage of my life, is clearly recorded inside my mind.
But im seriously not someone who will hold grudges. If i really do, in the initial stage, i will break off the bond le, but im really not tis type of person....trust me ;sob
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