? Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Hi baby~ im here to disturb u again... no one to tok to in the middle of nite(230am), only u le....
After 2 days leave plus long weekend, ytd im back to work again.. got 200 emails to clear. Clear plus finish shipments, arn late afternoon le. then whn got abit free time, do my other not so urgent things...
Mum called arn 5pm ask me need daddy fetch me home ma, i say anything lo. so daddy(who jus reach hm not long went out again to fetch me). daddy reach arn 530pm. den he called n tell me he downstairs liao...
But i tell him i not so soon can go off, he say ok.
Know y? initially whn mum called, i happily waiting to go off on the dot le, coz i dun intend to OT today de, not really feeling gd...
Then boss, 515pm, come my desk ask me for a report, she need data frm nov'09-jan'10.
i was like =.= i ask her, u need it urgent now? she say ya...
W/o saying another word, i jus do lo.. sigh~ at tat time I really feel sooooo down~, especially whn dad called me say he reached le.. haiz
in the end i left office arn 6. reach hm arn 645pm (coz of jam).
Although dad nv complain abit or say anything, but i can feel.
He so xinku, go hm put things, den noe i not feeling well, he straight come out fetch me, in the end he waited in car for so long... he also haven had his dinner... sobs~ crY~~
Baby i feel so bad...
Reach hm, i bath 1st den daddy. after tat we eat tgt.
1 small bowl of porridge also cannot really finish. maybe lunch time eat tat prawn noodle stil ful bah... Den pei mum n dad watch tv.
watch till my eyes wan close. arn 8plus i feel so tired suddnely, slp on sofa while watching tv wif them. den i take hp go rm, send msg to dajie n erjie.
Tell erjie wan an. Ask dajie abt insurance thing. (next time whn i die, my insurance money will auto gif my parents de mah) coz last time i buy tis life policy frm dajie de, jus wan confirm.
While waiting for their reply, i doze off again holding hp, not long after, erjie reply me le, den i put hp to silent n go back slp.
Dun wan wait for dajie coz she mostly wun reply me so soon, sometimes she working.
2plus am wake up see hp, dajie reply me arn 9pm. lol... but i dun dare reply back, later disturb dao her, haha....
Wake up, feel abit energetic, nth to do, den come here tok to u le...
Actually i keep thinking of something, something which i can't forget, keep in my mind. haiz... how to get rid of this "thing" in my mind.
I dun wan to keep thinking of this. no matter wat i do, where i go, i always think of tis.
It really affecct my mood n life alot...
Here i think, there nothing happen, no one knows, only i myself know, i xinku only...
if i'm down, my family suffer the most.
like ytd, i suddenly feel tired, den on air-con slp, mum say tis weather also wan on air-con ma?
my reply to her was abit pissed, den i go rm close door, off light slp.
really sian, y ytd i so attitude to her... y i do tis... i really sian
sian of tis thing, tat affect me so much... tiring also... keep repeating again n again, ask again n again makes me really sian...
i rmb recently duno coz of wat, i ask too much or wat, den jes say me. den i tell mum, u all better pray, one day i become mute ok? den no one will fan u all le, no one will kaypoh abt u all de things anymore le.
sometimes hao xin concern, in the end get back de reply is like so "shit or bochap"
i also human, got feelings de... u think i like to concern so much ask so much ma? u think i really wan fan abt u all de things ma? i also put aside my own de things, priortise u all 1st, but how u treat me? sigh~
now listening to bad romance, remind me of audi.
suddenly feel sad... everything whn im on street, den listen dao audi de songs, i feel so sad...
haiz~ y everything turn out to be like tis today... y everything changes... y y y...
i miss those days... those days i played wif ..... happily chatting, spinning, playing, go in n out waredrobe,hop frm channels to channels, create rm after rm, n saying our fav line(i sense something coming~)
All these are being stored in my brain de fond memories folder, i dun think in my life again, i will be able to encounter tis anymore~~~ (~_~.)
Aunty say my blog can publish a book liao, all so long story... i told her ya, my life journey can publish book liao, can be as thick as dictionary.
I'm not those type who can forget the past easily. tats y i mus always upgrade my memory.. haha, memories start frm kindergarden to now. good n bad also got.
B:/ drive is to store bad memories
F:/ drive is to store fond memories
Tats y baby, u are my external hard-disk, help me store some here, while im doing defragment for B n F drive... (^v^) Love u
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