? Monday, March 8, 2010
2 March...
8am wake up go prepare 930 nd go out le, mit aunty n jie @11am. reach there at 1030am, walk along tat street cannot find tat jap restuarant neh~ den i saw aunty co. so i called her ask her, meanwhile waiting for her, i go in Guardian ask the sales ger. hahaha~ ;shy
Finally mit up wif them liao~ duno issit i no appetite or the la mian nt nice, i ate abit jiu nv eat le... i noe abit waste, but i really can't swallow...
Their lunch till 1230am.
After tat i went walk walk alone~(hmm, i seldom go shop alone de neh)
1st stop: Chinatown
On my way to the beads store, an old lady ask me where is MRT. I point to her the way. but she seems unsure. Then i tell her, aunty, u wan go hm le ar, i bring u to mrt k? Aunty: yaya, xie xie ni xiao jie Wee~ shy~~~
2nd stop: Causeway pt
Reach le, i went to the top floor then slowly shop down. wow, my pace was really slow lo.. so not used to it... not used to shopping alone, not used to walking so slow...
I'm a person super scare of lonely de neh~
i wan ppl tok to me. lol
3rd stop: Woodland library
4pm come in, need to slack there til 7pm. haha, almost wan fall asleep a few times, den i think outside raining, saw many ppl coming in bring umbrella de.
cham, i don't haf umbrella, but nvm, later can ask jie come fetch me.
now is 610pm, i'm still waiting...
wait for tat pig to call me whn she reached.
boring, wan serve net de, but i duno go where to apply... jus wait lor... tick~ tock~ tick~ tock~
Last stop: Seoul Garden
Finally my hp sound le!
wah, super happy, jie is reaching in 8mins time!
lol, finally my loneliness is over liao...
wakkkakakaa mit up le, den go pay library fine den go mit rainy at seoul~
Everything goes well, i dun feel kj at all tis time miting new fren(rainy), maybe got jie arn bah... den aunty joining us later due to her work.
Tis time i nv get to peel the prawn... coz jie peel for me ler~ at one pt, i noe i said something to jie which is quite sensitive, but i dun haf tat intention de...
suddenly i can feel something not right, den i quickly add on to make it sound better...
Everythng end arn 9plus 10 i think... nice mit up wif they all...
March 2... is the day...
the day to finalise my decision.
Decision to.... to accept or forget it...
For the past 1week plus, there is NOT a single day i nv think of this at all...
Everyday i was thinking thinking thinking~ think until my head pain, heart pain, moodless, everyday like a dead living person, soul seems to be gone like tat,
at tat time, my best buddy is my hp, i kip holding n bringing it anywhere i go,
although i noe no sms will come frm tis person during tis period, but i still hope gt, plus my hp got my moo moo also...
Seriously, tis is the 1st time in my life, i encounter tis... i duno why either...
2 March, i decided...
i wan tis 二姐...
Today i feel so timid... in my heart i already decided liao, but i dun dare call her...
i dun dare to really look at her while she talking...
omg sia, y m i so timid today, faint si wo...
until the pt, i feel so regret i nv call her whn we really parted,go home...
In train i take out hp, start writing, thinking how to tel her...
i think very long~ den she msg liao, the sentence tat made me kj n scare is "i respect ur decision."
omg, i was thinking, she thinking tat i dun treat her as jie liao issit?
crY~~ den i faster draft liao send out to her... den i think she nv reply. den i called her... but she nv ans...
wah kao~ i really pannick liao~ zzzzz~ feel so regret at tat moment...
i thinking, i gt whole day de chance to tel her, but i nv. den now i regret.
but heng~~~ she reply le... lol, she seems happy whn i tel her i stil wan tis jie.
haha! heng heng heng~~~~~~ finally relieve liao... im really happy abt tis, really happy....
i tel myself, next time gt anything i feel n wish to let her noe, i mus voice out. MUST!
i dun wan to have any regrets in life in future...
I really really love tis Jie. As much as i love my parents, my sis.
I dun care whether is blood-related or not, no matter what, she is stil my beloved Er Jie...
Equally impt to me... I noe i can't afford to lose them, i think i wun be able to accept the fact if 1 day, anyone of them leaves me... Family for life
Please don't leave cutie(me) alone... n dun ignore cutie(me)...
Loves~
I LOVE EUU. 12:43:00 AM
