? Saturday, February 27, 2010
26/Feb (Fri)
today kana say again. boss say: y docs haven upload? shud haf by now de right?
me: no ar, for meco shipments, normally spain upload fri nite or sat de ar..
Boss: can't be, go check wif spain ask them.
I jus kip quiet n do wat she requested... in the end, results expected. Spain reply me say usually upload is sat n we will send u advice once available!
zzzz. faint, my fault again. boss also gt receive d email but she nv say anything.
Today sl ask me. wat happen ar? y is she treating u like tat?
me: oh, u can see the diff ar
sl: ya lo, ytd also, y ar?
Me: i guess she not happy wif me for nt being the past me bah...(nv help her)
now my mindset is, i finish my work i got time den help her. last time de me is, i help her finish her things 1st, den i stay back do mine. i diff now, got wrong ma?
i do this she say nt urgent do others 1st.
I do tat she gt comment. i really duno wat she wan, so tired of all this.... seriously....
i kip quiet gt wrong, tok too much also gt wrong.
Or issit like wat aunty told me de, she take me for granted. I'm agree tat im not as entertaining, as cheerful, as concern as before le.... like tat i also gt wrong mah?
Have i really changed? Yes i think.... But y can't i changed? y can't ppl ask me or try to understand y i change? Changes takes time also... anyone noe y?
i think only i noe... i'm not angry, not tired wif anyone, except for myself. All is my bad.
Who dun like to laugh, who dun like to be optimistic, who dun like to live happily each day wif their frenz, colleagues, families?
I nv tell anyone details regards wat happen today except for sl. She is the witness of everything how boss treat me. After hearing wat i say, she pat my shoulder, ask me dun think so much, dun care abt her...
Lunch time i nv go wif my dept ppl. i went wif huiling n doreen.. huiling see me so quiet den ask me.... i nv say wat happen, i jus say, no matter wat, i will jus ren, kip quiet jiu hao...
Doreen see me, she pat my head(i almost wan cry le), ask me dun think so much.. huiling also say ya, dun mind this ppl so much...
Frm today sl come ask me wat happen, obviously proven tat boss kip finding fault in me. Not my fault she also will link to me :( im really really................
Today pei sl go take MRT (i take a long route hm) reach hm 8pm. No one at hm... me alone, taking out pen, scribbling my tots on my small notepad, listening to songs.
930 le, jes jus come hm, shall stop writing.....
*PS: I'm so looking forward to 2March, finally can gif pig bracelet le(2wks nv see her le). hope she will be happy n like it upon seeing tis bracelet. No matter wat happen, see u all 11am on 2March, promise... dun wry for me.... Love~*
Love~
XP, 2am
I LOVE EUU. 1:34:00 AM
