? Saturday, February 27, 2010
25/Feb (Thur)
Early morning kana boss say. Sort of finding faults bah.. sigh~ y everytime i nv go make any mistake or wat, ppl willl always wan come find me trouble. I'm so sian. I so concern abt shipment, early morning reach office before 815am. Happily wanna faster settle the shipments things, in the end wat i get? i get back ppl "finding bones in egg" attitude towards me. Hv been doing the same thing since last time, now boss say no.
Haiz..; y ppl like to turn their words, like flipping roti-prata like tat, frm black to white, and frm white to black again. y can't thy say it n mean it.. y le... sigh~ nvm
is all my fault. their fault is my fault. my fault is my fault. everybody fault is my fault also... got to accept it i guess. I dun blame any1 at all, seriously. As long as thy happy jiu hao, other things doesn't matter..
Things are very simple actually. Jus tat humans like to make it complicated. Im one of this kind.
i have lost my laughter, my smile, can anyone help me find back?
mum say the past optimistic, cheerful me has gone.
Today doreen(finance coll) tell me: Janice ar, u seems very quiet nowadays, u got 心事?
Me: is it? haha
D: ya, diff frm lasat time, now u very quiet.
Me: hmm...
D: really got?
Me: hmmm... who dun haf wor, maybe mine takes some time to heal bah...
Sometimes i look back at my past photos, recall back the past me. i look into the mirror n realise, i really lost my smile. Where is it? I'm missing it.
Like the song: I'm missing u~~ wat shud i do~~~
i know other than my family. got 2 ppl worrying abt me. i hope i can let them be happy whn thy chat wif me, or whn thy are wif me. i wan them to see the past me, coz i noe both of them almost 1 yr. i think thy haven really seen how nice i'am in the past.
Nice meaning funny, cheerful, lame,open,optimistic... i dun like to lose. i dun wan them to wry for me, sad coz of me... dun wan lose them.
Especially tat pig, 1yr, not very long, not very short either. But seems like me n pig noe each other many yrs liao, we used to tok everything under the sun, everything we will tell each other, but now, no more le... :(
I hope we can go back to the past us... no more arguements, everyday is laughter, jokes, lame arn, as close as before or even closer bah....
Misses~
I LOVE EUU. 1:15:00 AM
