Other Side of^me

? Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Upcoming almost every month got ppl birthday...
Just wanna store my memory here.. in case i forget in future...

April- Shifu (4th)
May- ErJie (10th)
June- Dad (21th)
July- Ice Aunty (29th)
Sep- Mum (1st), Jes (22th), Dajie (30th)

I LOVE EUU. 4:30:00 AM

Hi baby~ im here to disturb u again... no one to tok to in the middle of nite(230am), only u le....

After 2 days leave plus long weekend, ytd im back to work again.. got 200 emails to clear. Clear plus finish shipments, arn late afternoon le. then whn got abit free time, do my other not so urgent things...

Mum called arn 5pm ask me need daddy fetch me home ma, i say anything lo. so daddy(who jus reach hm not long went out again to fetch me). daddy reach arn 530pm. den he called n tell me he downstairs liao...
But i tell him i not so soon can go off, he say ok.
Know y? initially whn mum called, i happily waiting to go off on the dot le, coz i dun intend to OT today de, not really feeling gd...
Then boss, 515pm, come my desk ask me for a report, she need data frm nov'09-jan'10.
i was like =.= i ask her, u need it urgent now? she say ya...

W/o saying another word, i jus do lo.. sigh~ at tat time I really feel sooooo down~, especially whn dad called me say he reached le.. haiz
in the end i left office arn 6. reach hm arn 645pm (coz of jam).
Although dad nv complain abit or say anything, but i can feel.
He so xinku, go hm put things, den noe i not feeling well, he straight come out fetch me, in the end he waited in car for so long... he also haven had his dinner... sobs~ crY~~
Baby i feel so bad...

Reach hm, i bath 1st den daddy. after tat we eat tgt.
1 small bowl of porridge also cannot really finish. maybe lunch time eat tat prawn noodle stil ful bah... Den pei mum n dad watch tv.
watch till my eyes wan close. arn 8plus i feel so tired suddnely, slp on sofa while watching tv wif them. den i take hp go rm, send msg to dajie n erjie.
Tell erjie wan an. Ask dajie abt insurance thing. (next time whn i die, my insurance money will auto gif my parents de mah) coz last time i buy tis life policy frm dajie de, jus wan confirm.
While waiting for their reply, i doze off again holding hp, not long after, erjie reply me le, den i put hp to silent n go back slp.
Dun wan wait for dajie coz she mostly wun reply me so soon, sometimes she working.

2plus am wake up see hp, dajie reply me arn 9pm. lol... but i dun dare reply back, later disturb dao her, haha....
Wake up, feel abit energetic, nth to do, den come here tok to u le...

Actually i keep thinking of something, something which i can't forget, keep in my mind. haiz... how to get rid of this "thing" in my mind.
I dun wan to keep thinking of this. no matter wat i do, where i go, i always think of tis.
It really affecct my mood n life alot...
Here i think, there nothing happen, no one knows, only i myself know, i xinku only...
if i'm down, my family suffer the most.

like ytd, i suddenly feel tired, den on air-con slp, mum say tis weather also wan on air-con ma?
my reply to her was abit pissed, den i go rm close door, off light slp.
really sian, y ytd i so attitude to her... y i do tis... i really sian

sian of tis thing, tat affect me so much... tiring also... keep repeating again n again, ask again n again makes me really sian...
i rmb recently duno coz of wat, i ask too much or wat, den jes say me. den i tell mum, u all better pray, one day i become mute ok? den no one will fan u all le, no one will kaypoh abt u all de things anymore le.
sometimes hao xin concern, in the end get back de reply is like so "shit or bochap"
i also human, got feelings de... u think i like to concern so much ask so much ma? u think i really wan fan abt u all de things ma? i also put aside my own de things, priortise u all 1st, but how u treat me? sigh~

now listening to bad romance, remind me of audi.
suddenly feel sad... everything whn im on street, den listen dao audi de songs, i feel so sad...
haiz~ y everything turn out to be like tis today... y everything changes... y y y...
i miss those days... those days i played wif ..... happily chatting, spinning, playing, go in n out waredrobe,hop frm channels to channels, create rm after rm, n saying our fav line(i sense something coming~)
All these are being stored in my brain de fond memories folder, i dun think in my life again, i will be able to encounter tis anymore~~~ (~_~.)

Aunty say my blog can publish a book liao, all so long story... i told her ya, my life journey can publish book liao, can be as thick as dictionary.

I'm not those type who can forget the past easily. tats y i mus always upgrade my memory.. haha, memories start frm kindergarden to now. good n bad also got.
B:/ drive is to store bad memories
F:/ drive is to store fond memories
Tats y baby, u are my external hard-disk, help me store some here, while im doing defragment for B n F drive... (^v^) Love u

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~不要等到失去后才珍惜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I LOVE EUU. 4:00:00 AM

? Monday, March 29, 2010

woooowwwwwww......
wake up 8 plus today, today on leave at home...
Afternoon time online check emails, den saw aunty in msn, she on mc today.
Lol, den we played viwawa.. super long nv play liao, i also din notice i got 2 a/c there.

I think arn 3 plus played till arn 5plus, den i super hungry, log off le go eat dinner...
Raining le~ but still feel very humid...
5plus msg jiejie, ask her go back early, but din reply.
6plus msg again, also din reply.
Hmmm... den 7 call her, got ans. saying she still in office...
den waited, 9pm msg again, she say she leaving le.
Lols, i feel i so kaypo sometimes, hahaha, duno y i like scare tis jie duno -poof- till where liao, no news n reply de... Worried at the same time scared disturb dao her :(
i noe, she super busy wif her work de... I aSked her whn go out, she can't confirmed.
Although i very looking forward mit her since last mth till pay day till now, hmmm, but... i noe she tired n busy n sick n not enuff time for herself le...
sigh~ see how bah~ Don't wish to keep stress her also...
Suddenly i feel dajie's shadow in erjie's... hmmmmm, well...

Hope jiejie can take care of ur health, u just recover nia, plz dun let it come back again...

I believe not only her, many other ppl also. even for myself, past weeks, everyday i nv go off on dot. At least will stayed till earliest is 6plus. Latest got one time recently, i really stress dao n pissed off, till i off my hp, stayed in office alone till 9pm, security still comes in and ask me wat time i gg off =_= tat nite, i reach home at 10pm.
All alone~ no hp, no fren, no one, only strangers, passerby... Nv on hp, so can't keep track of the time also...
I feel bad, coz next day morning wake up, whn i on hp, 2 ppl were worried for me...
Hereby apologise to Jie n aunty. hope thy forgive ya...
I think i wun do tis again le, in case u all worry for me...

Today sms sl ask her everything ok? Afternoon i sms her, she 8plus reply me. den say her things not ok, she also haven help me key in things, she feel ps.
Sigh~ y mus feel ps sia, i more ps, sometimes i take leave i so worried, cannot really rest my mind, coz ppl nd to cover my work also, in the end, delayed dao ppl de work also.
Den i tell her nvm sia, aiyo, i go back can key in myself de wor...

I thinking, now on leave 1 or 2days only, hmmm, so shorthanded le... Wat if got one day, i can't be in office, need to take at least 1-2 week de leave how? Sigh~ i really dun dare to think so much. always there is unstopped de work pouring in... Focus on work 1st more impt.
I really worried, tmr go office, gt tonnes of docs waiting for me... haiz, i noe, no choice dee...
Just do it ! (nike slogan) Never say die! (energizer slogan)
hahahahaha ^_^ wee wee!!

Ps: i think i should really changed myself to adapt to others. Lower down my sensitivity, increase my optimistic, lower down my kaypohness, increase my self-reflection, lower my frankness, increase my love for others by actions not words, lower my assumptions, lower my belief n trust in my sixth sense.
Choose to believe n no doubt. Even if everyone tell me tat person is lying, i also must choose to believe. Believe the answer i get from this person.

**wink wink** Suddenly i feel i so sentimental sia ~~shy~~

I LOVE EUU. 10:30:00 PM

? Sunday, March 28, 2010

Morning i 730am jiu wake up le, wan disturb jiejie de, but i scare she sick haven wake up yet... but 8am jiejie sms me :) keke, get to noe tat her fever has subside, good good ^_^

Whole afternoon doing something challenging sia, so far in my life, 1st time encounter tis, so difficult sia, do till my both thumbs n index finger swollen... argh~do until my tears wan shoot out, coz really pain... Nxt time whn free then i take pic post up here ^_^

Finish everything arn 10 i think, den super tired, go slp...

but can't slp sia, coz i thinking, tmr no work, nan de, den i on pc play fb, msn till 1plus...

I'm happy today... Very happy

I LOVE EUU. 11:30:00 PM

? Saturday, March 27, 2010

After encountered many many unexpected things, i hope i really had learnt, really grow up.
Grow up after every hurt.
Grow up after every disappointment.
Grow up after every setbacks.

Learn to grow up.
Learn to step back when there is conflicts.
Learn to control my temper.
Learn to lower down the level of my curiousity.
Learn to stand in ppl's shoes n think.
Learn to tell white lies?
Learn to be more humble.
Learn to accept.
Learn to bear every criticism.
Learn to give n dun expect any in return.

I'm trying to be optimistic. But i feel like i haven make it... im way too far
I'm lost? I've lost to the "weak" side of me.
I blame~ i blame myself~ i blame myself for doing things tat made ppl xinku coz of me~
I hate~ i hate myself for being so unreasonable in the past, always expect ppl to listen to me, do wat i said~
I regret~ i regret i'm like tat~ and results in today de me~ the changes i see in ppl, in me~
I'm feeling very miserable~ very xinku~~
I'm sad~ coz i done so many err things yet my family n jie still love me so much~
I sad~ i sad coz i dun hope .............
I feel hurt~ since young till now, i always the one, ppl tend to sacrifies for the sake of other party...
Fault doesn't lies wif them, is Me...
No matter is young, or now, i'm being treated the same...
Conclusion i can tell myself is: I'm not as impt as compare to them...
No matter how much i do, also no use bah... i guess

In Sec sch...I'm being thrown alone by classmates whn i'm in trouble, letting me face the problem myself...
Being shouted vulgar n pushed by ah lian at canteen coz i accidentally step on her feet.
When i turned arn, my frenz all -poof-
Then when everything settle, thy come back find me...
Are all these my real friends ma?

Work...I'm being sacrifies, boss ignore my sickness(high fever) for her sun marketing? i rmb she ask me eat panadol, go office rest, she can't come back coz she is buying ingredient for tonite's cook. Well, i listened n accept. Eat panadol le, continue to work for 12hrs(last time retail line).
Worth it ma? I really duno...

A Friend... Sacrifies our friendship coz her other fren dislike both of us contact tgt.

Ps: There are many more incidents also, bring up le also no use... I'm lucky i'm still "surviving" today.
My life journey, encounter is alot alot, as compared to those ppl at my age grp. i duno issit i suay? or past life retribution? i met dao de ppl, all treat me really "special".
Am i really tat "kelian" which mum always told me?
Am i a nice person? Or am i actually the Most fake person, coming here write blog, write abt how kelian i'm, how ppl bully me... How angel i'm... etc etc...

Am i really this type of so called hypocrite person? hahahaha... if not, y mus god let me meet all this ppl? let me "bang, arrow shoot, head bleed, whole body wounds"? let me encounter all this to make me grow up, learnt, see the "other side" of humans huh?

SigH~To the extend, many times i can only endure le, come back home cry in my bed wif my pillow covering my face... I can say tat i nv did anything bad to them, everything thy expect, i will do de.. but y m i getting all this?
I nv wanted to be the centre of attraction. Never at all... I also duno y, why some ppl tell me thy jealous of me, coz i'm always in gd relations wif the upper management or those "power" ppl or those influencing power very strong de ppl?

I think i really need to reflect myself on this... How to be a baddie in order not to be hurt again? hahahahaa =x

Trust...
I NEVER wan to trust ppl at all, due to my past yearsss encounters, i find tat ppl are really scary... scary till i dun dare to tell them my personal things at all.
Those hi-bye friends all say that i'm like a porcupine, cold-blooded, unfriendly person... Know me many years, but they duno my real character or rather the real me.

Seriously, I'm 25 this year.
Friends i got alot... True fren? or rather soul-mate?
Till this very moment of my life, i got 2.
I really trust this 2 person alot alot...
1 i known her for almost 2years plus(since oct'07)
other one coming to almost 1year(since april'09).
Why them? Feelings... I feel their heart towards me.. they care frm the bottom of their heart, they are frank n direct to me..
(Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty. ~Sicilian Proverb)

Everything i will tend to find them, share wif them, talk to them, ask for advice... I wan to know everything abt them de, jus like my family members...
In my frenz list, nv had one, i handmade things for them... But for both of them, i actually did it.
nv wanted to buy ready-made stuff only.
I wan them to have the one n only limited edition in this world.

Till now, i'm still in contact with both of them... but of coz, not as often as before le... Although is really sad to say so, but can understand, sisters ma, eventually will have our own life de to go de, can't be everyday stick tgt, same goes for dearest parents too...
I'm glad, both of them still will keep in contact with me. I hope is forever, even my next life i also hope to mit them again, and call them dajie n erjie again...

I used to scare... Scare coz of our drifting apart, our r/s will be faded...
But now, i understand, if our r/s can't stand this small apart, or other "new factor" tat comes in n affect us so easily till we break bond, den actually we are not fated to be JM.. Correct?

Firstly i scare of r/s between me n dajie. Drift apart, coz she married, we nv worked tgt, she seldom haf time for me. But Im really happy tat, sometimes i get greetings frm her, many times is me contacting her, till i so tired also. But her simple msg, really make my tireness goes off.
Last time she told me something (4ever in her life). this simple sentence really means alot to me.
Secondly is Erjie. Same thing, drift apart, although not as far as dajie, but same lo. But her 1 word also means alot to me. i nv had a big sis before. After i met Erjie, she gif me a feeling which now i really feel tat i got a big sis le, someone who really treat me as her mei.

Dajie nv really gif me the feeling she treat me as her sis, rather, she treat me as her very best fren/soulmate. That's wat she told her frenz when she intro me.

Erjie gif me the feeling she treat me like her mei. Coz tats how she everytime intro to her frenz. and she is like anyother jiejie doting on her meimei- buying mei de fav toy, fav sweets, bring her eat her fav ice cream, n places which her mei wish to go...
But one thing i feel guilt towards this jie is, this jiejie nv scold her mei before, even her mei did wrong things...

Both jie encounter same thing wif me. I will tend to quarral wif them in sms/msn. i also duno y...

perhaps i really prefer face to face talk bah...

Other than daddy, mummy, jes, both Jies are the next closed kin to me le...
No matter how far we are, no matter how sick i'm, where will i be...
Got anything, regards good news or bad news, they will be the 1st that i will informed.

When gg temple pray pray~ i also got pray for both of them de... Hope they will always be in good health, happiness...

Dajie all the while got weak health, maybe due to in her young times, she kip gg clubbing, now health not in really gd state de.

Erjie health shud be better ba, only recently hear her gt fever, guess is due to the bad weather n her workload n not enuff rest bah...

Both of them de happiness i guess i dun nd worry so much, so far so good bah... Im jus worried for their health nia...

Haha, suddenly i think now, my hp hanging 3 keychains. Frm my 3 sisters. then my hp display pic also put photos taken with 3 sisters.
Whenever my colleagues/frenz took my hp n see, they will ask me, who are they.
Automatic i will say, my dajie, erjie n xiao mei.
then thy will @_@ at me n ask me, huh, since whn u got so many sisters de?
I say long time ago la, den thy will say, issit? y diff face?
I say ar ber then! nt blood-related mah, y mus same face wor...
hahhaha, my reply makes them =-="

I love my Parents. I love my DaJie. I love my ErJie. I love my XiaoMei.

(^v^)I love them(^v^)

I LOVE EUU. 9:21:00 PM

? Monday, March 22, 2010

7pm, leaving office wif a very slow pace...
saw my bus went off while i was waiting for traffic. Many ppl jaywalk as there is no car, left me, standing there...
Green man flash, i started walking slowly across the road...
Then surprise to see another of my bus came(normally interval is 10-15mins, today is early)
i ran all the way to chase it, lucky bus uncle wait for me... but... while going up the bus, i almost tripped n fall, hit my left leg de toes(very pain),lucky i hold my balance...sigh

1 stop before my alighting, i saw a bus conductor gg to alight, normally whn i was alone, i nv see passerby or another passenger face, i will jus stare blankly into the air...
Duno y, today i actually looked at the bus conductor, who is getting rdy to alight frm the front exit. All this while he is back facing me.
Continue i jus look outside the window, stare blankly at the sky.
When the bus driver open the door, this bus conductor actually come to d back exit n alight, suddenly i turn arn n see, is my ex-colleague. almost 3-4yrs nv see him le...(Last time due to some misunderstanding, we stop contacting. sigh~)
But was too late, as he alight very fast n the bus close the door, i din manage to call him...

Many images of past memories flashes back... I really missed those times back when i was working in DIY store, tis colleague really treat me very gd. After exchanging some smses,im relieved to noe tat he n his family is doing fine.
Misses his daughter alot, i rmb i have contribution in naming his new-born daughter.
He is jus like a big bro,tat time whn he noe his wife was expecting, he very happy, everyday come work, think of names for his baby. Den he asked me for opinion also. I told him, why not use rui as middle name? easier to write n sound sweet.
I name rui and his wife name qi behind. RuiQi(rachel).sweet name^_^
Today met him again, im really happy... happy to see that he is doing well.

Today in bus, i nv nap at all... whole journey back, my mind kip flashing many images. image of the past happy memories... memories of those times whn im in retail line wif tis bro, memories of those times whn im in m/m line wif dajie, memories of those times wif erjie...
My tears almost dropped when all these fond memories flashes...
I'm really missing~~

8pm, n i'm hm. daddy n mummy gg out to sintua. this whole week sintua is having big day, so mostly parents wun be at home at nite.
Alone~ i sit at the kitchen, listen to fm933. Mind being occupy by wat happen today, wat i told erjie today... I really duno wat to do...
I keep thinking, being frank n direct to my close ones, is it good or bad to them?
Sigh~ i sit n think til 930pm den go bath...

Feeling so unwell now, my head spins, my stomach feel really sick... After bath, sitting at the PC now trying to write blog, halfway thru, i run to basin to vomit.
Vomit nothin out but liquid...
10pm now, my head really spining now,hand not much strength, stomach feel so weird(i wan to eat,but now i drink one sip of water also wan vomit. i haven eat my med also, think shall skip for today, if not wasted).
I wan faster type finish.. in case i forget...

oh ya, tmr got stocktake at marina square...

ok, shall end here... cmi le~ gg to force vomit.

I LOVE EUU. 9:20:00 PM

? Sunday, March 21, 2010

第一次見面看你不太順眼
the first time I met you, you didn't meet my eyes
誰知道後來關係那麼密切
who knew that after our relationship would become so close
我們一個像夏天一個像秋天
we are like the summer, like the autumn
卻總能把冬天變成了春天
when we are together, we make winter like spring
妳拖我離開一場愛的風雪
you helped me by pulling me out of a cold love snow
我揹妳逃出一次夢的斷裂
I helped you escape from a bad dream
遇見一個人後生命全改變
when you meet someone, your whole life changes
原來不是戀愛才有的情節
this relationship is not only in love, but it's in friendship
如果不是你我不會相信
if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't believe
朋友比情人還死心塌地
a friend was better than a lover at loyalty
就算我忙戀愛　把你冷凍結冰
even when I'm busy with love and put you to the side
你也不會恨我　只是罵我幾句
you still don't hate me, you only nagged at me a little
如果不是你我不會確定
if it wasn't for you, I would be unsure that
朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
a friend would be more understanding than a lover
我的弦外之音　我的有口無心
even if I say nonsense, I never mean it
我離不開Darling　更離不開你
it would be hard to leave my darling, but it would be harder to leave you
你了解我所有得意的東西
you understand everything I brag about
才常潑我冷水怕我忘形
sometimes you would throw water at me, afraid that I would become overconfident
你知道我所有丟臉的事情
you know everything I'm ashamed of
卻為我的美好形象保密
but you keep it a secret and don't share it with everyone

I LOVE EUU. 5:35:00 PM

? Saturday, March 20, 2010

Today i receive a call... guess wat?
is frm marina sand.

I was super happy when that person told me he is calling frm marina sand, and ask if i haf apply a job. i say yes! i apply for retail position.
He ask me whether m i able to go for an interview on April 6,1030am.
Immediately i say, hold on ar, i check the date. and next i see is tue, weee!!! Yes, i can make it on that day.
then he ask me for my particular, and say will email me the details n things needed to bring along for interview...

Duno y, i was super super happy upon receiving tat call.
Sales sales sales~
if everything goes well, im being selected... OmG~!!! Im back!!!
Back to sales line again~~!!!! I really missed those times, when everyday, i can chat wif customer, promotes products to them, making new friends...
(I really really hope i can get tis job, wif my requested salary.)

Im super looking forward to tat interview day....
Even even in the end, im not being employed, i will be happy too...
becoz i noe, on tis day, i haf tried my best, even failed, i wun haf any regret.
Moreover, outside still haf many sales job available too~

Saying abt sales job, really make my mood shoot up~ Although 2yrs here in shipping industry, im not really happy at all, regards to job. Of coz, these 2yrs, i get along well wif all colleagues, maybe im the youngest, all of them quite look after me...

Thanks to shipping, i get to noe jie, aunty, jade, tomo, n many more...
Why? coz office hr work ma, got more free time to go online play...
Im really grateful n contented. I have many many things...
Im fortunate... No matter how busy i am in future, i wun let out r/s drift apart de.
I will do my best, promise...

If really really im being selected.... of coz i will be super delighted, but at the same time, sad.
Sad to leave my current colleagues... But got to move on de...
Anyway, now say so much also no use.... everything confirm de then decide bah...

Today, Me, I dun dare to think so much, expect so much, ask so much...
No matter is work/personal.

I LOVE EUU. 6:04:00 PM

? Sunday, March 14, 2010

Updated photos taken recently with my 3 dearest sisters

(^v^) Dajie n Me (^v^)

(^v^) ErJie n Me (^v^)

(^v^) XiaoMei n Me (^v^)

*********** SISTERS FOREVER*********

I LOVE EUU. 12:51:00 AM

? Saturday, March 13, 2010

12 March (Friday)
2nd part

weee!!! after settling everything of the sales, i left office arn 730, gg to meet dajie n rachel n dajie de fren(joey) for dinner...
lol, we went to bugis for mala steamboat (dajie's fav). each person cost $18. very long nv go there le... so miss it~ dajie also say, very long nv go there tgt le, so nice...
(always been wanting to bring Erjie go de coz she nv try before, really hope can really bring her go eat 1 day ~SOON~)

We left the place arn 11pm. then proceed to boat quay. Dajie got a fren over there, so go find her. but can't seems to contact dao dajie de fren, den we jus go into any pub n settle down wif 1 bucket of heinken. chat, sing, drink... stay there arn 1hr, den we decide to hop, see if can mit dao dajie de fren anot, den we go to the 2nd pub (few shops away) n settle down again wif another 1 bucket of heinken. But our 2nd stop, rachel nv join us, she say she tired, wan go hm liao.. ( she seems so emo, sigh~ we keep entertain her, but she seems down~)

Left me, dajie n joey. Joey really funny lo, we keep laughing till stomach cramp.. at tis pub(shebang), the boss come tok to us. den he keep ask me for my number, ask me interested to work part time anot, pay not bad also, 13-14 per hr (7pm-3am). lol, i was abit tempted la, but i nv agree immediately. after thinking mostly wun go, dajie n family not really supportive towards tis job.. thy feel is NOT safe lor...

i thinking, i can only work fri n sat nia...
anw, tis boss very nice, tok to us, share wif us many things. den he say i still young, i say old liao wor, he ask me how old, i say 25, he say: oh~ still young mah... but... u dun look like u are 25, i tot u very young.
wakkakakakaka~~ weee!!! im a young baby~~~ young young~~
boss treat us 1 bottle heinken. i drink till a limit(3bottles) jiu stop liao, long time nv drink, cannot drink much liao...

den boss come over to me say got one guy behind us, wan noe me but he shy. den i turn arn, he say hi to me, den i say: oh hello~ im janice, u are? him: hello~ im mike
me: oh~ nice to meet u :)
him: me too~
funny part is, after intro finish, i turn back to dajie here, continue play wif her.
hahahahahaa~~ nice guy la... lols but i not interested =x

i go pub, not becos i wan to "fish" for new guys, i jus wan to chat wif my frenz, chill out lo... others not really interested, unless special case. hahahaa

left arn 3plus. i reach home is 4am liao... haha, dajie also... standard her, always let me take cab 1st, den ask me sms her whn reach hm...
i really miss Dajie alot... the last time met her is arn dec? seems very very long nv see her... ytd see her, i super happy^_^
but she become thin le... coz of her work, stress bah...
Glad to noe tat she changing job le, better, normal working hrs... keke~~ gdgd

Before we bid goodbye, i go to her say:
Me:Dajie ar, can u do me a favour?
Dajie: yeah?
Me: can u take a picture wif me?
Dajie: can ar

Then i ask joey help us take. Si joey say me, si janice, jus now mai take, now wan go hm liao, den we all drink so much liao, den u wan take.
lol, den i say her, aiya~ shy la, faster help me take.
den dajie say, ya la, she miss me alot, faster help us take la.. hahaha!

Dajie Dajie Dajie~ lol... everytime i call her, n she ans me... i super happy~
Dajie call me janice de~ keke...
Jie Jie Jie~ haha, same as ErJie~ hahaha~~
but i seldom call dao ErJie, used to hear her call me mei instead ;shy (^v^)

Both Jie noe me so well~~~ love them

After tonite, i also duno whn can mit out again... i hope really soon lo, i dun wan interval so many mths den mit again :(

There it is, taken outside pub before going hm:

I LOVE EUU. 11:58:00 PM

12 March (Friday)
1st part

Last day of warehouse sales~ wee!!
let me summaries this week de program:
Mon: prepare for warehse sales...
Tue: stocktake ION
Wed: shipments + prepare warehse sales
Thur: warehouse sales
Fri: warehouses sales + mit dajie

This few days go home really late... earliest reach home is 8plus, latest is 4am.

Today in office really busy, many ppl walk in n out, gt sales, den all inside warehse... i also busy, run here run there, run up run down...

Busy wif work, busy wif sales, busy wif many many... sigh~ sometimes busy until i feel abit tired... Although time pass very fast, but my body n mind cannot keep up well neh~

Today made payment for the clothes. In total i spend arn $130.

Buy for Dad, jes, alvin, erjie n her bros. keke~~ i tell jiejie abt tis, she very happy, coz she got new clothes liao... haha, her bros also got liao~ hahaha (opps, i happy not becoz thy haf new clothes to wear, is that tis pig say 1st time gal buy clothes for her) wakkakaka, shy die me~
mei mei buy clothes for jiejie~ Wee!!

Monday, daddy coming fetch me, coz the clothes quite heavy, think arn 8-9pm bah... i can stay in office finish my work also...
Coz wed meeting jiejie (happy!!), i wan make it in time pass her.. haha, she seems so excited abt the clothes neh~

Tue got stocktake again at Ngee ann city, so cannot bring back.
Lolx, die die left monday nia, i thinking if dad nv come fetch me, i also will stay till 8pm den take cab home.. wee!! i very happy n looking forward to wed

I LOVE EUU. 9:28:00 PM

? Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Stocktake today MD LT
left office 1230pm, ended 1st part of scanning at 530pm.
NExt session started at 930pm(nd to wait for store to close).
4hrs went walk arn wif boss n finance colleagues..
we went lucky plaza, i ate porridge..
After tat went to swensen.. coz no where to shop liao, they say find a place to slack there~
den thy suggest go swensen.. i was like @_@ lol, swensen AGAIN~ wee!!

Share the waffles n ice cream wif boss, coz too full liao~ boss ask me choose semo flavour. ;shy
standard: sticky chewy n mint!!! wakakaka, boss say: mint is nice lei~ taste like the one at my hse there, gt one uncle ride bike come sell de~
i hear liao i was like =_=" orh...

I keep being lame~
Boss say wah, she slpy. den i say, wah sey, ur "zzz" finding u liao wor~ can see got some at ur head there liao~
den boss say ya lor~ "zee zee~"(aka zzz) finding me sia, so tired...
After boss finish, one of my finance colleague, she was walking beside us, suddenly go bang into a Queue pole, almost trip. den me n boss kip laugh, den i say : WaH~~~~ "zzz" go n find her liao wor~ wakakkakakaa~~~
Den boss ask me walk between the 2 of them, den i say mai la~ later ur 2 de zzz come find me den i got 6 zzzzzz liao wor~~ how can neh~
**laughterssss** boss say she laugh til stomach cramp...
i noe i super lame -_-

Everything ends arn 11plus. consider early liao... lucky lor. well, still got 2 more stktake to go.
Reach home almost 12 bah~ shower, write blog till now... 1 am liao~ so tired, wan slp le, tmr got shipment, thur n fri got sales.
omg~ not enuff rest wor~ but im happy~~~
Happy i got u~u~u~~~~~ muacks!
sometimes a simple greeting can makes one happy

I'm looking forward to Fri~(meet up wif dajie)
I'm looking forward to next week~(meet up wif erjie)
I'm looking forward to May~(erjie's birthday)

Love all,
XP, 1am

I LOVE EUU. 11:50:00 PM

? Monday, March 8, 2010

I'm happy today.. duno y wor, maybe pig is back le~?

Step in office, faster do shipment, coz i noe afternoon nd to do taras sorting out for thur n fri warehse sales~
11am mum called n say i ytd tio 4D. lol-$40~~ very happy coz tis no. is pig n my no.
Since Nov till now, i strike 3times liao, tis pig really bring me luck huH~ coz i seldom tio 4D de..
1am went to a sales near my office, selling Gucci, long champ, Coach stuffs. Whn we reached there, surprise to see a very long Q lo... i intend to buy so asked sl pei me go see see. haha~ Queue till 230pm den manage to get in, coz thy slowly release ppl go in de.. Happy sia~ Weee!!!

After tat go to nearby place to buy lunch back.. maybe my hungriness over le bah~ so jus buy 2 bread n lime juice. go back office arn 3pm le... lol, boss nv show any sign of unhappiness, instead ask me show her wat i buy neh~ haha~!

Rest awhile le jiu nd go warehse do sorting liao... coz tmr PB store ppl coming back warehse do pricing n sorting. Then tmr 12pm need to leave office to stocktake at Liat Tower. Hmmm, i think no 11pm no nd go hm bah~

Today i do those sorting n choose clothes till 7plus, den called jie n mummy, dun wan let them worry :) Reach hm arn 9pm le... Not hungry liao~ lol, jus ate some siew mai n abit leftover de chicken cutlet...
Oh ya~ forget to post~ i lost one more kg recently... 1mth i think i have lost 3kgs in total liao~ wah~~~~~ =x

Im really happy today, i feel gd whn got ppl concern~ at least i noe im not being forgotten bah~ i so afraid of being left alone~ seriously, especially by someone close to me...
Im happy cos today i packed some clothes for dad, mum, sis, jie... buy wristlet... make whole dept laugh dao~lolx =x

I misses the past~
I misses laughter in office, laugh until close door also can hear =x
I misses lame me keep talking lame things to boss n colleagues n make them laugh until thy say cannot tahan me~
I misses the past r/s of me n pig~
I misses last time pig last min will say mit out, den buy me tis~ buy me tat to eat~
I misses those time we often meet out~
I misses gmail chat time~
I'm missing~~~ I'm hoping~~~ I'm wishing i can turn the clock back~~~

Misses

I LOVE EUU. 11:28:00 PM

2 March...
8am wake up go prepare 930 nd go out le, mit aunty n jie @11am. reach there at 1030am, walk along tat street cannot find tat jap restuarant neh~ den i saw aunty co. so i called her ask her, meanwhile waiting for her, i go in Guardian ask the sales ger. hahaha~ ;shy
Finally mit up wif them liao~ duno issit i no appetite or the la mian nt nice, i ate abit jiu nv eat le... i noe abit waste, but i really can't swallow...
Their lunch till 1230am.
After tat i went walk walk alone~(hmm, i seldom go shop alone de neh)

1st stop: Chinatown
On my way to the beads store, an old lady ask me where is MRT. I point to her the way. but she seems unsure. Then i tell her, aunty, u wan go hm le ar, i bring u to mrt k? Aunty: yaya, xie xie ni xiao jie Wee~ shy~~~

2nd stop: Causeway pt
Reach le, i went to the top floor then slowly shop down. wow, my pace was really slow lo.. so not used to it... not used to shopping alone, not used to walking so slow...
I'm a person super scare of lonely de neh~
i wan ppl tok to me. lol

3rd stop: Woodland library
4pm come in, need to slack there til 7pm. haha, almost wan fall asleep a few times, den i think outside raining, saw many ppl coming in bring umbrella de.
cham, i don't haf umbrella, but nvm, later can ask jie come fetch me.
now is 610pm, i'm still waiting...
wait for tat pig to call me whn she reached.
boring, wan serve net de, but i duno go where to apply... jus wait lor... tick~ tock~ tick~ tock~

Last stop: Seoul Garden
Finally my hp sound le!
wah, super happy, jie is reaching in 8mins time!
lol, finally my loneliness is over liao...
wakkkakakaa mit up le, den go pay library fine den go mit rainy at seoul~

Everything goes well, i dun feel kj at all tis time miting new fren(rainy), maybe got jie arn bah... den aunty joining us later due to her work.
Tis time i nv get to peel the prawn... coz jie peel for me ler~ at one pt, i noe i said something to jie which is quite sensitive, but i dun haf tat intention de...
suddenly i can feel something not right, den i quickly add on to make it sound better...

Everythng end arn 9plus 10 i think... nice mit up wif they all...

March 2... is the day...
the day to finalise my decision.
Decision to.... to accept or forget it...
For the past 1week plus, there is NOT a single day i nv think of this at all...
Everyday i was thinking thinking thinking~ think until my head pain, heart pain, moodless, everyday like a dead living person, soul seems to be gone like tat,
at tat time, my best buddy is my hp, i kip holding n bringing it anywhere i go,
although i noe no sms will come frm tis person during tis period, but i still hope gt, plus my hp got my moo moo also...
Seriously, tis is the 1st time in my life, i encounter tis... i duno why either...

2 March, i decided...

i wan tis 二姐...
Today i feel so timid... in my heart i already decided liao, but i dun dare call her...
i dun dare to really look at her while she talking...
omg sia, y m i so timid today, faint si wo...
until the pt, i feel so regret i nv call her whn we really parted,go home...
In train i take out hp, start writing, thinking how to tel her...
i think very long~ den she msg liao, the sentence tat made me kj n scare is "i respect ur decision."
omg, i was thinking, she thinking tat i dun treat her as jie liao issit?
crY~~ den i faster draft liao send out to her... den i think she nv reply. den i called her... but she nv ans...
wah kao~ i really pannick liao~ zzzzz~ feel so regret at tat moment...
i thinking, i gt whole day de chance to tel her, but i nv. den now i regret.

but heng~~~ she reply le... lol, she seems happy whn i tel her i stil wan tis jie.
haha! heng heng heng~~~~~~ finally relieve liao... im really happy abt tis, really happy....
i tel myself, next time gt anything i feel n wish to let her noe, i mus voice out. MUST!
i dun wan to have any regrets in life in future...

I really really love tis Jie. As much as i love my parents, my sis.
I dun care whether is blood-related or not, no matter what, she is stil my beloved Er Jie...
Equally impt to me... I noe i can't afford to lose them, i think i wun be able to accept the fact if 1 day, anyone of them leaves me... Family for life
Please don't leave cutie(me) alone... n dun ignore cutie(me)...

Loves~

I LOVE EUU. 12:43:00 AM

? Wednesday, March 3, 2010

***A Forever Friend ***

Sometimes in life,
you find a special friend;
Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.

This is Forever Friendship.

When you're down, and the world seems dark and empty,
Your forever friend lifts you up in spirit
and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full.

Your forever friend gets you through the hard times,
the sad times, and the confused times.
If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows.
If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on.

Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that
everything is going to be okay.
And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete,
because you need not worry.
You have a forever friend for life,and forever has no end.

No matter what happens, will always cherish this forever friend.

(^v^) Jie_Mei for life ("v")

***XY_XP***

I LOVE EUU. 8:20:00 AM

? Monday, March 1, 2010

爱永远不会消失

我知道你慌,我知道你乱
我知道你没了主张,
我知道你用泪水洗着伤
不要哭不要哭
就算月亮星星忘了守护
不要苦不要苦
就算时间空间瞬间结束
爱是永远不会消失
从相同的地方开始
记忆变成一床被子能温暖心事
爱是永远不会停止
不过换个方式开始
拥抱过美丽的日子
感动会真实一辈子
我知道你怕我知道你盼
我知道你不想这样
我知道你求上天让世界倒转
你的心若遗失在昨天
捡回来把它还给明天
感动会真实
爱是永远不会停止
不过换个方式开始
拥抱过美丽的日子
感动一辈子

**Friendship is a strange thing....we find ourselves telling each
other the deepest details of our lives...things we don't even
share with our families who raised us...But what is a friend? A
confidant? A lover? A fellow email junkie? A shoulder to cry
on? an ear to listen? a heart to feel?...A friend is all these
things...and more. No matter where we met....I call you a friend. A
word so small...yet so large in feeling...a word filled with emotion. It
is true great things come in small packages.**

I LOVE EUU. 9:28:00 AM