? Sunday, January 17, 2010
Recently i feel tat i like to blog more frequently....
ppl who noe me well shud noe y...
Ytd can't slp again... all is becoz of my own doings, i saw things which doesn't mean for my eyes or rather is better not to noe at all... last time i see the clock before i close my eyes n slp is 330am.
Today wake up arn 10plus.. but i dun feel like getting up, coz i gt nth in mind i wish to do... so i lay on bed til 11plus almost 12pm. omg, 1 hr laying on bed...
During tis 1hr, my stupid brain start thinking again~ y mus i feeling so xin ku, where is the root of problem. actually i noe wats the problem, but i jus refuse to accept it, stubborn me huh.
Many things i noe how to say, but whn it comes to action, i simply can't do it, lousy me...
Wake up, 1st thing,i on my PC. Go to add/remove programs, den i click remove auditionsea.
Next i go to every drive, search for audition folder, and delete everything. all screenshots everything everything....
Of coz i feel really bad, oh man, i siao dao go delete away something which is impt to me huh...
Next i go browse thru all other folders, n delete away those unwanted de.. den i go defrag the whole c:/ drive.
After defragment, idiot me go explorer, auditionsea website, n dl back the program.. now is 51%, n im still waiting...
My emotion has over taken my mind. tats y i haf such action.
Whn i told sis i delete audi le, she was shock.. seldom do i will do something stupid for some stupid reasons.
I seldom feel so wu nai de~ tis feeling really made me feel so breakdown... i dun like to gif up easily, but y problems n problems kip hindering me..
I think my limit is up to the max... i dun wish to let tis problem persist me in the future anymore... hope soon it is coming to an end...
Im the type of person who likes to haf a runaway tots.. which is not gd, i noe.. FOr me is, out of sight, out of mind mentality.
Ok, tats all for it.. enuff is enuff... Everything shall go back to normal..
Hmmm... i miss my drinking n clubbing kakis so much...
i miss pouring my tots to my 2 sis so much...
One of them, we will easily haf conflict, i wan pour to her de... but im scare...
For d other one, im not worried having conflicts wif her at all, but... is hard to arrange for mit up.
i love n cherish both of them alot, even my own sis also say, i really treat them as my own sisters.. i say ya, i really do...
1 is hard to arrange for mit up. 1 is scare of conflicts. oh... i misses my 2 soulmates so much... Who else can i find now? only my blog... sad rite. Blog, blog blog. im actually pouring to a blog; a dead thing, somthing i can't get any advice or reply from... haha! so funny sia, blog...
I LOVE EUU. 2:23:00 PM
