? Sunday, May 18, 2008
2day DW got one company outing at East Coast Park.
As for my group, consist of me, sis, GH, Pris.
GH n Pris can't make it. SIs went to find other frenz to go along, due to quite last min calling, many of them can't make it either..
I really really wanted to go, but.... ..
Coz, i feel that im too close to her. juz like my own sis. Becoz of that. the more uneasy i will be. Coz it is hard for me to draw a line between colleague n frenz, Work n personal.
Coming to work, sometimes i dun really agree with thy do. So i will voice out. Slowly, slowly, i noe she got listen to my advice and i noe it takes times to improve on it..
Main problem is me lo, i go n say her, den in the end i m the one relying on her also. Everything throw things to her to help me handle (of coz she will helps lo). On the other surface, i think, how can a downline treat a senior like that wor.. Haiz.
Many Many times i wanna gif up, but tat "Invisible yet Invincible Bond" keeps holding. Sometimes i told her, i really dun wish to care already, sometimes voice out le, u all stilll like that, makes me lost hopes. But, whn things really happen again, i also poke my nose into it.. Damm me. haha, kaypoh
1 day i asked her, why the time she thinks that i have done wrong, she never say me at all. She told me," becoz i m the type who noes it myself, moreover im the type who dun like ppl to say me at all." Upon hearing this, i felt guilty... Why? Why whn u all think tat i wasn't in the right, u all dun wan to scold me lei. i tot u all will do that, but u never. You all treat me like that makes me feel more in debt to u.
U dote on me, Treat me so gd yet i haven done anything to make u all proud.. Only noe how to voice out the problems problems and problems of u all.
Since young till now, my life is always full of good ppl who treats me really gd, whn i was really in deep trouble, sure will have a person stands infront of me to help me.. No matter what. Dunno y, so 邪门. Sometimes i think, wats my previous life? Issit i done many gd things in previous life? :p
ALthough in tis life, i have been going thru the hard way to learn and to survive in this society. But always there are people there to lend a helping hand.
Recently my rec told me something. He will stay becos of regene. I was like.... should i feel sad? or happy? Im the one who leads him in, plan his progress or rather, im his direct's direct. Den he told me he will actually stay becoz of regene. Coz she really noe how to teach.
Being sad becoz the things i have done for my rec, although im the back end person, i seldom say my intention, i juz do, hopes thy can feel.. But i was wrong.
Being happy becoz i treat regene as my own sis, no negative tots n feelings towards own siblings n family.
I dunno how to draw tat line. I also dun wish it either. But how do i progress on? I really have no more strength to go on, now im juz hanging on to the both of them, Regene n sister as support.
As for another impt person that supports me is yandao!
I also feel like i was "bullying" him, haha, he everytime gave in to me, and many times i promise him le, but till now stilll haven fulfil. (i remember owing him a dinner treat after he came back from vietnam. Drive him to Loyang Tua Pek Gong Pray. Give him full force Helps him in DW) Somethings has been promised long ago since last yr bah. so 内疚.. But he very gd de, coz he has a BIG Body, BIG heart!
He asked me to work full time to help Co. (Marketing)
I was shaken coz afterall, Sales is my love. Plus the bond with them.
Why i say the bond, coz even i was working in my current job, i will think of them, think
of my rec, think of my progress, etc.
Why why? Do i really like "Magnetic" alot?
Needs consideration, coz i need to consider financial side too. Even i never go into DW, i will also consider going back to Sales Industry again.
大哥，大姐，小妹 keeps me going ...
人与人之间的奇妙
I LOVE EUU. 12:33:00 PM
? Monday, May 12, 2008
May 11-12
Talk quite alot to my fren, Juz analysing wats the fault or overlooked thing in work. As part of her members/ partner, of coz, i wish that our team can grow bigger and stronger. Thats why i voice out my tots to her. Luckily she told me wat i have said is logical. Hmm... Coz i dun like to talk nonsense or wat to so called "say" ppl. Most imptly, im in now position to say anyone. Coz i, Myself haven done it either..
Throughout the nite. my mind keep flashing images of how i can do to improve, to work together, to train my rec, to help my da ge n da jie, to achieve my goals... etc.. haha, everytime wakes up.. In the end.
May12. i have fall sick le.. Running dwn wif a high fever. Sore throat, flu...
Makes me feel so weak. Bo bian, arn 7am, sms my manager to tell her i can't make it to work 2day.. Den arn 9plus i went dwn to see doctor (for the sake of MC Prove)
Haiz. I waited for arn 2hrs.. Was shivering while waiting for my turn.. Finally, is my turn. Doctor examine me, and my temperature shot up to 38.6 degree. Doctor say i needed more rest and he gave me 2 days MC. One more thing he told me... " IF by wednesday, i still haven recover, i must go back and see him again, coz he suspect i kana the Dengue, and he needed me to draw blood for further examine."
Wah sey, in my mind i tot, got so serious ar.... -_-
But according to wat doc say, my symptoms suits quite well for dengue fever. In order to play safe, he told me to go back again if i haven recover by Wednesday.. *Faint
Sigh. Im so tired and vexed.
Tmr my rec is bringing her fren dwn for rec session. I wanna to go dwn to handle, but in my current state, i dunno can make it there anot. As for my sis, she is also working very hard, coz she is also packed wif her appts. I dun wish to throw all burden onto her. Hmm... How?
I also dun wish to throw this to Dajie also, coz she also got her things to handle....
Haiyo...
Hope i can get well by tmr. Then can go and settle the things myself.
Most imptly is to get my fever gone. Coz it is like come n go, come n go.....
Perspire so much also no use sia.
I LOVE EUU. 9:08:00 PM
