Other Side of^me

? Friday, March 28, 2008

2day im on leave. Actually happily wanna go see new office de. Happily wanted to go dinner wif them de. but in the end, thy are busy wif work, postpone till nxt wk.. Abit sad lar(everything planned,checked le), but understand tat in tis line is like tat de. Time is flexible but ppl are also very "flexible". No fixed working time... hmm.... Then after tat ask my fren out. He is busy. Ask my other ger frenz out. Both got appt le. Wanted to go chilll wif them but only one person can make it... HAIZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz.. i spend my leave 2day at hm. Clear up my rm, do planning for the coming days. Bread n Frenz is impt. Since frenz all busy, den i shall not everytime only think of drink n eat.. haiz. PLan wat i can make out in life.

Not tat i dun wan go dwn, becoz i m rusty le, in the sense tat, the way they present.. hahaa, coz my way of closing a sales or recruit a person, is totally different frm wat thy taught me. What is marketing plan, wat is product knowledge, actually is all very simple. juz how we interpret to ppl. But i understand, basic procedure we need to follow. Thats y i need to brush up on my skills 1st.

Hope tat my coming days will be a busy n fruitful one.

I reflect back, the journey in DW. Who i have approached, What i have sell, how far have i go, What have i learnt, What i gonna do nxt, What is my aim.

This coming Sun got BBQ gathering organise by yandao. Is a Sunday. BBQ at evening. Haiz again. How to enjoy, whn the nxt day i gonna wake up at 6am(boring office job). XiaoMei live so far, i can only see, talk, play wif them for a few hrs nia.. ~sob ~sob. wan stay longer also hard.. Really Wanted to go de... Coz these bunch of frenz, i love them alot, thy are funny, really enjoy being wif them.

I LOVE EUU. 5:11:00 PM

? Saturday, March 22, 2008

Finally, my probation is over. 5 March'08.
Feel relieve coz i dun like to be bonded with any contract.. Den stil got privilages, leaves, etc..
Benefits is really gd. But.... I'm still making myself adapt to tis industry. 3mths to me, is not enuff for me to see where i stand. Right now, i stil dun have the confidence to continue, to tell myself actually i can make it in shipping. Why? This 3mths i really make myself 'devote' to it, learn as much thing as i can, ask as much enquiries as i can..

Now, basic shipping doc. i can handle, basic delivery arrangement i can handle, basic billing i can handle. But, i always kana "say" by my manager. When got problems occurs, she will question me why. I explain to her le, but she will always have her own "sayings" to shoot me back. Den she always say i got things dun wan to ask. But the fact is i got ask le.. i ask my senior, coz she is so called my immediate trainer. But i ask her, she everything not sure, dunno. ask me to go n approach manager. In the end, i kana the arrow.. Haiz..... I got do, but ppl say i never. Bad life huh... I have controlled my temper le, i dun wan to argue or do futher explanations tat the fact is i got asked, juz tat shi jie dunno.. Haiz, wats the point, juz take it and swallow dwn, LL do the work. Over time, i believe tat i will become a "no-feeling and black" idiot,. coz take too much "black wok" le.. hahhaa.... Till now, i feel tat i got abit STM, always forget things. But i think is i too ....., plus the "surprise" i've got. hmmm.... I always think tat ppl dun bother abt me, but seriously i noe there are stil ppl concern abt me, juz tat im greedy, hhahaa, always feel tat is not enuff..
But, thinking it back, do i worth ppls concern?
I dun think so , coz i juz feel tat, i dun worth it.... Im juz not gd
I'm a person who is born kaypoh, always run infront of others, If bad, will kana those arrows 1st... ...if gd is ying gai de.
hate, if i never have this attitude, tis actions, will there be ppl saying?
Frenz like to tell me abt their problems. im really happy coz i can lend them ears, maybe advice too. Den when i got problems, i seldom wanna pour out to ppl, coz thy have their own problems too, den i always think those rubbish thing, haha, is there a need to say out? No.?

Sincerity is the most impt issue as frenz. True frenz action all comes from the bottom of heart.
What i know is, even now, i feel like im alone, but im sure that im actually not.. I will digest all my problems and spread positives to all my frenz. i think that wil be a better way. No point telling someone abt my things, coz 1person vexed can le, dun make others vexed too. (^_^)

Counting down to 20 July(My Birthday & A promise i told my fren) Time is impt for me now. Left arn 3mths. Will determined my future route... Hope i can make it.. Mus Jiayou..
Hope all my frenz also can strive for wat u all want. Really noe wat u all want in life. Time is precious ya!
A fren told me: Do u find difficulties in opportunities? Or Do u find Opportunities in Difficulties?

I LOVE EUU. 11:03:00 PM

? Saturday, March 15, 2008

14 March'08 (9+ pm)
Life is full of unknown. a grp of frenz actually happily wanna go watch movie, but in the end we met accident.. None of us is being hurt, juz tat we knock dwn a pedestrain.
Both party is at wrong. Lastest news is The guy is ok, juz tat got injuries at the leg.

This is the 1st time in my 23yrs, i witness an encounter so near me, actually, im sitting behind the driver sit(pessenger seat) and tis guy juz bang right beside me, juz mm distance away of me n him. i saw him bang right at my window. i was shock. Shock until i dunno how to react. For tat split seconds, my mind was blank. Nxt, i quickly ask my frenz to call for ambulance. I wanted to get dwn the car, but i find tat my door is jammed, can't open... Ambulance arrived, Police arrived. Take dwn our detailed, etc.. I was still stun. At tat very point, i Shock.. Being left alone for tat moment wif the car, the thing tat came into my mind is, i wanna call my fren and tell her abt tis.( i also dunno y i wanna inform her). but in the end i stil never call her, dun let more ppl worried. So i juz sit by the road side, waiting for my other frenz's instruction, coz thy went to attend to the injured person..

Thy ask me to drive the car to the nearest carpark. which is at Far East Shopping Centre. At tat point, actually my legs were juz stuck to the ground, but still la, bo bian also muz do it.. The side mirror has dropped off. How to drive? i was stun again. Car was dented, wif scratches and i think abit of blood or wat on the window.. Helplessly, i wind dwn the window and pop my head out to turn right...Alone
(After that, den we noe tat we are actually not supposed to move the vehicle after the incident.)

Everything ended arn 11+pm.
When i reached hm at arn 3am, i keep thinking of that incident image. I saw the guy bang directly towards my direction, after tat, i saw the traffic light, and heard "Bang". Everything happen in split seconds. I was scared n shocked. So near n so real. The feeling is unforgettable, sad, emo.
No matter wat ppl wanna say me, Timid or no use.. all doesn't matter to me at all, coz tis is wat im going thru and feeling.

15 March'08(8am)
I woke up and whn mum talks to me and i wanna reply her, no voice was coming out frm my mouth wor.. Coz i have been sicked for the past one week, sore throat. Finally, now not much voice coming out.. Haiz.. Den i stil remember, i told mum tis morning, i was scared. haha, no use rite..
Now is 4pm in the afternoon, im all alone in the house. No one at hm, coz my family all went out for shen tan big day.

Funny Incident:Arn 2pm, i wanna top up my PLASTIC cup wif ice, and the cup slip frm my hand and drop on the floor, ice scattered all over sia. i pick up and pour water and surf net. But, i keep feeling the table is wet wor.. hehe, the PLASTIC cup actually broke .. zzzz. So, went kitchen to wipe up and ...... floor was slippery wif the dripped water, and.... I fell dwn.. hahhaa and.... my small finger now is blue-black liao... Wat the hell is happening...

Haiz.. Feel like going to one place, sit dwn wif fren....

I LOVE EUU. 3:40:00 PM

? Saturday, March 1, 2008

THis Blog that i have created, started in July 2007. that time, it was a well-known trend. Why i choose to write my things in blog. Becos i'm a type of person, that i wun easily share my inner side of my tots n feelings to ppl. I m a mystery person to others. 1st impression ppl say is i'm attitude, haolian.. later impression ppl say is im complicated, likes to 自尋煩惱, stubborn, attitude.

My Character :
1) Think? Think about many many many.. Relevant or irrelevant. (Useful or rubbish). Think abt my actions, think abt wat ppl means-every word tat thy speak. Think abt ppls tots. Think abt every actions tat ppl done. Think abt family, frenz, work, future- Meaning of life.. Coz i really concern abt everything, either direct relate or not related to me..( thats my character?)

2) Stubborn? I stand firm on wat i think. I always wanna things to be logically agreeable by ppl. I have high requirements towards myself, ppl say i stress myself alot. Why? Becoz i always belief i can do better n better, coz nothing is impossible in this world. Humans is born to create miracle, i believe. If i failed, i will be very disappointed n reflect on wat i have done. Why? How? Next? Forever, i wun blame anyone, i will only blame myself. Coz things always takes 2 hands to clap.

3) Kaypoh? I hope all my frenz are gd, happy. I wun let my frenz kana bully. Coz i hate those ppl who are fake bullying my frens who is simple and gullible. Haiz. But sometimes i noe tat things are beyond my control. Coz who will belief a person u have known for mths compare to years. Ppl are like tat, i feel. I'm not saying im saint. juz tat, i juz dun wanna have regrets for not telling my frenz my tots.(even whn thy are not bothered at all,abt wat i told them.) Sometimes im very direct, sometimes i'll hint. Coz i understand tat, being too direct may hurt ppl.

4) Mystery? ppl whom known me for 10++ yrs told me. Frankly, thy dun noe me wat kind of person im actually. I juz like a open book with no words inside. Sometimes seems to noe me, sometimes thy dun. Not tat i dun wanna share. But who"? Hard to gain my trust? Sometimes i feel tat i have found tis person to share everything under the sun, but sometimes i feel tat, m i bothering ppl? coz i'm quite a problematic person. i like ppl to bother me, tell me their problems, coz thy trust me mah.

5) Sensitive? Whn a person action or attitude got slight changes, i will feel tat. Den again, link to my kaypohness, i try to find out more. Especially towards me, i'll be extreme sensitive... Boliao rite. But wat to do, build in de. Tis sensivitity sensor, cannot take out frm me de. if i sense tat, tis person got problem against me, i'll try to keep away, coz thy muz not feel tat i'm a nuisance mah. I dun wish to spread my negative to my frenz.

6) Flickle-minded n no confident? sometimes, i dunno which way to go. sometimes, actually deep inside me , i have choosen a route liao, but i'll still ask ask ppl for opinion. boliao huh? if ppl gave me the ans which i have choosen, i will be very confident, coz got ppl agree with my tots mah, if the opposite choice choosen, i'll re-think again.

7) Funny? I'm a crazy person last time. In class, i a well-known "Crazy Da Jie" coz i m really open, 天塌下儅被蓋. Haha, my Crazy grp consist of 6 members. I'm the leader. Everytime we will hang around 2gether, being crazy. One for all, all for one. Thy always say i sot sot, coz i believe one who is happy, will makes everything go smoothly, keeps everyone arn me in gd mood. One is gd, everythings wil be good. Also, laughing and being optimistic keeps one young lo.. Now hor, i'm not as crazy as last time le, if u can see my crazy side, den u muz be really lucky. coz of many things over many years, i feel tat my heart is getting older n older. I'm now more n more useless. I dun wan myself like tis lo. I wanna everyone arn me to feel tat tis world is beautiful sia. No worries, nth.

8)Remember? I always will think of past things. Mostly is those nice ones. The very 1st job i do. The day i went for a interview in DW. The many 1st thing i get to experience here. Remember those ppl who treat me gd all these years. 5yrs.. I will think of the days i'm in DIY store, the days whn i 1st started in dw. All i remember.. Remember coz is memories that i love. I learn, I experience, I gain, I do, .. consist of 喜怒哀樂..

I believe every single person needs:
Supports makes ones go further, do better, happier.
Encouragement also impt. Boost up ones confidences level
Notice and concern of ones presence and states. Makes a true fren
Willing to share, makes a frenz

People are the most impt in life. No matter wat we do, we are not alone. Always there is good and bad ppl. Ppl in different positions look at things differently. i believe Communication is the best tools btwn ppl.

I Want:
To be a happy-go-lucky person like before.
All the people i noe is doing gd n happy.
To earn MORE money to settle my family burden, bring them overseas.
To have my OWN car, OWN business
My true fren n i will be frenz for life.

Everything i have written here is wat i felt. My 1st song singing in public is (Tao wang by yanzi) This is the 1st song tat i actually sang in front of so many ppl alone. DW Boss request me to sing, he told me tis song is really meaningful.. I agree. Plus Yanzi n Amei are my favourite idol. I have a mini signatured collections of their albums. hehe...
I seldom wanna sing infront of ppl (*^_^*) Blush, but i like to sing.. hahaha, singer at hm nia.

Hello Kitty at front page coz kitty is my favourite.

There is every meaning behind everything.

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I LOVE EUU. 8:24:00 PM