Other Side of^me

? Wednesday, October 31, 2007

2day work, nth new.. juz type type type.. again, dunno y, my back aches alot.. really painful :(
hai~
after work went down DW, Qw told me she has succeed in her talk with parents.. i was really happy for her, she finally taken a big step out, out of fear.. ^_^ tats gd! Hope her journey in the future is really smooth, and can climb up the stairs steadily...
For me?
hmmm.. dunno y, sad not becos of i can't get any sales, tats not the main point i will still wanna stay in this job... Its Becoz of the nite heart to heart talk to parents, makes me understand better. understand myself, my family, the people arn me better.. in the past i was very proud, always think tat wat i wanna do will juz make it even.. i have put in 100% effort...
But, i was wrong.. hmm, can say tat non of my frenz has seen me cried before.. why? coz i have high pride mah.. dun wanna let ppl see the other side of me... Frenz always say knowing me for 10++ years, still dun understand me..
Tats y i seldom cried, i dun cry de, unless... the impact is quite hard..

Thinking back the time i cried till very JIALAT is:

1) I fail my 'O' Level English paper... I thought i have given my best le, but still get D7

2) I was working at DIY store, kana bully by ppl is ok for me. Wat makes me damm sad is, those person whom i have respect the most, given my best in work.. In the end, wat i get is thy say i m useless, attitude, dunno how to work, only noe how to act cool... 1 aunty always treats me like her daughter, tell my fren to tell me not to come down to look for her, whn i m free, she dislike me.. ha.. upon hearing tis, heart breaks.. i have met 2side ppl.

3) i know a fren, she treats me really very gd, she listen to my problems.. in the end, ppl arn me object me from going near her, saying many negative things abt her, but i dun care, coz frenz is mine, i noe the best.. I like her as my talking companion, coz around me, i dun have any frenz who really wanna listen to my problems ( happy or sad things).
In the end, my fren misunderstood my personality, saying she dun wan to contact me anymore. Wah,, damm heart shattering.. Becos of tis fren, my parents ask me move out to live, i dun care still contact her, in the end she misunderstood me, dun wanna listen to my explanation.. Hmmm.. Friends?

4) DW: is a company i join recently. i really like tis company, like the frenz and colleagues i known here.. hehe, strong bonding between everyone.. 1 day, i talk to my parents abt my job. i hope tat thy will get to benefit, get to use tis product which i can say there is 100% advantage to us, 0% disadvantage to us.. It really helps us de, i hope my parents can get to use it, so i discuss with them, told them my thoughts, i really hope tat their health will stay better, stronger..
In the end.. hmm... many talkings, many many... Tat nite really shit, tears automatic drop down whn my fren called me ask me how.. kao~
also dunno how to answer her, she keep consoling me, haha, ask me dun be sad, but how wor, automatic thing cannot shut off de.. Why tears drop?
Becos i really put in 101% heart in it.. but, parents juz told me not to pressure them anymore. but i never.. really.. if i have the $$ i sure buy for them de.. but the worst thing is.. i m useless.
Working for around 4years, i never been of any help to tis family.. instead thy are really supportive.. upon tis few days thinking, i hope i can cool my mind down, choose my path to go...
i wil also try my very best not to let ppl around me worrying abt me, see the other side of me...

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? Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Oct 29:

Why?
hmmm... whn i reach hm, tok with parents, result was not very gd for me... thy thought i always wanna sell the product, wanna promote... hmm, of coz i really hope to climb up but i noe my family financial status well... juz suddenly dunno wat to say, juz sat at the kitchen , think think think... in the end, tap open... hahahahaaa
Juz thinking, many many things..
I have come to society to work for since 2003, and the main thing is, i never bring any helping hand to my family. i earn how much, spent how much.. 4 years le, wat have i done for tis family..
now i insist they muz support support support..
Thy are getting old le, dad is the main solebread winner in the family. for myself only got one word to describe (Useless)..
After much thoughts, i think that $$$ is the main goal for me.. But of coz lar, thru the proper channel to earn $$ lor.. hehe..
Wat is my interest, wat has future?
Not very important le...
Last time i always think tat running outdoor sales is wat i wan.. but, i think i m too naive bah...
its not as easy as i think.. currently as a sales coordinator, wat i do is mainly ADMIN JOB!
Damm it, i really hate it..

Oct 30:
really tired today.. whole body ache like hell, hand pain, back pain... u noe why?
from 12pm-5.45pm non-stop of writing, looking at PC check data... Even skip my lunch :(
Non-stop for 5hrs, sitting in front of pc, keep writing, checking, writing, checking... hai~
Although time flies whn we are busy, but... hard to describe feelings, only i noe....
Colleagues ask me "wah, u so steady ar, hold 2jobs, not tired ar?"
i told them not tired at all, becos i dun treat job as job.. i treat it as a learning school, a place for me to learn many many new things... ^_^
i love my marketing job alot, not becos of $$, becos of the ppl there, really nice ppl, hehe, always wan me go down drink kopi.. Learnt alot here..
<^----Positive thinking-----^>

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? Tuesday, October 23, 2007

juz sold a bracelet which cost $180 to my sch mates.. he really like tis and support me... hahahhaa, really thanks alot.. really hope he will benefit frm tis bracelet he had bought.. not juz to support me...

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? Monday, October 22, 2007

from morning til evening went out wif family!
we went to relatives hse.. hehe, gd lar, going out with family is great!

Arn 7plus went dwn to office to mit my S&M colleagues for dinner.. we went to have the 麻辣火鍋。。really hot n spicy man... wakao.. is my 1st time eating tat lor... overall the dinner was quite fun lar.. chit chat, eat, sweat... whahahhaa :)
1st time drive my car down to office, SUPER STRESS.. damm it. why'? becos all is parallel parking de, wa kao, i seldom park de wor.. damm stress.. hahhaahaa..

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? Saturday, October 20, 2007

my 1st customer to approached is my ex-colleague.. hehe, although is a fail transaction, but!
i learnt alot in this 3hrs conversation between me, my senior, him...
The main thing is learn from experience, hoped tat my fren can understand the benefits of using tis product.. my aim is to spread tis benefits and importance of life around, and not mainly to sell the product... As i always say Don't do for the sake of doing, don't sell for the sake of selling.. Make sure the person really understand the whole benefits of using the product, not supporting me...
Really is a good experience for me 2day.. Learn the positive thing from the negative side..

Finally, after listening to my fren and family thinkings.. i decided to take up the job as a sales coordinator. although the starting pay is low, but i really like it alot.... Meanwhile, i also wun give up my sales and marketing job de... wHy? Part of it is i m really liking this job scope, mentality of being in tis job is to let ppl understand the importance of Health, LIFE.... Another part is the people i get to noe here. Of coz, all the colleagues there are very friendly, helpful.. hehe but most importantly is the 2 persons that i am always contact with.. both of them teach me alot, have lots of patience wif me.. i m really grateful to both of them.. (^_^)

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? Thursday, October 18, 2007

11am have a interview for admin job... Sort of a receptionist job scope lor... 8hrs job per day, 5days work (Mon-Fri).. is a Investor centre at AMK.. opening next wk bah....
Ask me wait for call wor.. lets wait bah.

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? Tuesday, October 16, 2007

2day appt 2pm went for Sales n marketing training.. Selling Biomagnetic stuffs.. quite interesting and challenging things to me.. overall saying is quite fun lar, i like my colleagues there, thy are all friendly ppl.. currently im juz undergo training, so haven actually decide whether to work FT or PT..
Then hor, wat makes me more happy today is , morning time,i receive a call from a company tat i have previously sent my resume to.. thy called me today ask me down for a interview.. WAHh!!! if really thy will employ me as merchandiser or wat, i would be happy like hell.. But hor, i really like my sales n marketing job alot.. learnt quite alot frm my colleague, from their life experiences all that...
See how lar.. Tml i will to going to interview at 3pm.. See wats the result like bah... Good Luck~

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? Sunday, October 14, 2007

Appt at 2pm, i arn 1.30pm reach le, but the person got meeting, so juz wait lo...
^_^ 2day interview iz on a more detail briefing on wat they are selling, Biomagnetic products.. I can say is still quite new to many ppl, or maybe to s'porean bah... Overall, i m quite convinced with the product.. hmm arn 60% lor.. y? 40%? shall see how..
2day we chat till arn 5plus bah.. hehe, dad,mum n sis waited for me since 1plus lor, so paiseh.. but job mah... hai~
the interviewer very nice lo, chat alot.. hahahaa, so friendly
tml need to go again wor, to negogiate on the salary all tat... Gd Luck~

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? Saturday, October 13, 2007

2day i went for a interview at 4pm.. Is a sales and marketing job.. hmmm, wats the actual job scope like, i'm not too sure.. wat i sure is that is a office hour job.. hehehe^_^
tml need to go for a 2nd interview, den thy will revealed the actual detail about the job and the salary to me.. Hope it will go on smoothly~~

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? Monday, October 8, 2007

These few days my 盲腸痛死了，連續這幾晚都很痛。。。pain until jump up in the middle of the nitez, sweating... hai~ die le wor... i really scare of going to the hospital for operation...
My fren told me if 盲腸破會死人的。。我還真不想那麽早死叻... actually when i m hospitalised, i hope my frenz would come n see me de lor.. i scare of being bored wor... if can hor, hope got 1 or 2 pei me throughout the nitez... wahhahhaa (kiddin~)

我不想累死我的朋友咯。。其實，我不想你們為我擔心，哈哈哈，盲腸才嗎，應該是small case bah... 1-2days time sure can go home de... (^_^)
hehehee, 矛盾叻，想有人來賠，又不想讓你擔心。。。
shall see how lor... see who got keep in touch with me! (can't expect me to go round calling my frenz say i hospitalised bah...if got operation, where got enough strength )
Not so soon, i still can take it.. hehe, later stage den see how...

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? Friday, October 5, 2007

Part 1:

Morning 10am mit angelyn, help her Move things.. hehhee, is a 21inch tv lor.. From Woodlands to Marsiling... we take MRT TO admiralty den take Taxi to Woodlands take tv den again travel to Marsiling.. zzzz, quite tiring, hot day, heavy stuffs... hahaahaa..

Overall the process end at arn 12pm.. Damm hungry, den we went Causeway point for lunch..

---Carvana--- tis is the 1st time i went there.. the food there was quite nice.. ^_^ 3person cost arn $35.. quite worth it.. nxt time i would recomend my frenz also...

Part 2:

Reach hm arn 4plus le... damm tired, so went to take a short nap to 6.30pm... becos later nite time need to go out again...

Cemetery TIME!

Ah gong tomb need to shift place to be together with ah ma@Mandai... so yesterday around 11pm, all the relatives gather at Choa Chu Kang Cemetery for the ritual... its my 1st time to withness this...

Wat they do is the Priest do some praying, joss sticks n papers offerings... Took arn 1/2hrs chanting.. then priest told us to go to nearby coffee shop to rest, 1hr later den go back to cemetery coz by the time, thy will have finished knocking off the tomb le.

...... Around 12.30am we went back, all of us gather around the buried area(where the coffin is)

to see, the person was arn dunno how many foots deep down, with the coffin, taking out all the skeletons and left behind stuffs by ah gong.... Surprisingly, ah gong 4 gold tooth was still around lor(quite hardy gold) and also his pants..hehe...

Not scary at all for me, instead is something new that not everybody get to withness de!

Everything ends around 1am++... Reached home arn 2am... zzzzz

今天的重點是我看到流星(at the cemetery)！！！22年來第一次！！Hope my path ahead of me will be smooth and steady....

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? Wednesday, October 3, 2007

2day no outing to go... actually intend to go library de, but hor... hahhaaa, lazy me...
Sunny Day !! So i walk 2 bustop down to bank to transfer some $$$... Pay day le mah, got things need to settle.. After that, walk all the way up (coz i living on hill-top) ^_^
Tiring man !!!! But treat it as a form of exercise lor, hope tis few days at hm relaxing wun turn into a FAT Person... hehehee, muz do exercise

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? Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Enjoy the sentosa trip with Desmond!
We went to 4D Magix, Sky Tower, Image of Singapore, Merlion ($33.90)
Fun! Hehe.. Go to the Dragon Trail nature trail.. k lar, all trees and mini waterfall.. hehee.. Nice Nice, relaxing too!~
since the few mths when i went, sentosa change alot...
4D Magix is fun lor, quite real, as if we were in the movie playing a part lor.. hahhaa, (water splashing, Wind blowing, etc)
Sky Tower More shiok, Bring us up to the top, almost reaching the sky... hahahhaahaa, nice scenery.
Image of S'pore also change, got small intro for us to watch abt how S'pore come about... den hor, the toilet there also damm clean, damm relaxing, got music to hear de.. hehehe
Merlion also change.. Now thy got token for us to put inside the Golden merlion mouth to get a tix to redeem free gife de lor.. wat we get is a handphone acc. Cute!
Hmmm... explore almost all of sentosa, except the beach areas...
:Thanks Des for Accompany me.. hahaa, really enjoy alots.. (@_@)

I LOVE EUU. 11:23:00 PM

? Monday, October 1, 2007

2day is my 1st jobless day (Relax Day!)
Thought of going cycling for long time, but no chance to go, finally Now i have the chance le!
Ask my sis to accompany me to Parsi Ris Park !! Yeah~~~
We set off at 11.30am, reach there before 12pm..
+ Rent Bike (2_bike for $10, 2hours)
+ Ride around, Explore the park, frm one end to another.. hehe:)
We took many many photos! hahaaahaa, without knowing, we actually took around 100++pics wor !!! Steady sia!!!
The whole park was not that packed, quite relaxing....
But around 1.30pm, Xiao Mei fall down from her bike !!!!
Oh No !!!! Bleed lor... hahaahaa
But she still ok la, although pain, but she say nxt time she still wanna come again.. HEHHhee, Cute Xiao Mei ^_^

+We went to a rock to sit down, Enjoy the sun, enjoy the scenery, enjoy the Sea Breeze!!!

---------Relax-- Relax---Relax----- Enjoy--Enjoy---- Enjoy----------

I LOVE EUU. 7:43:00 PM

2day is my last day of work le...
Hmmm... sad? can't bear ? 2day my fren told me 地球不會為了我停止轉動，老板娘的店不會因爲我而關閉.. i agree !!! thats true, life still go on for everyone, even i m not part of the company member anymore (2years 9mths)... really ok for me... After working for 4years, i hope to take a break now...趁現在休息一下，做一些我想做，想玩的事，看一看S'pore.. 給自己時間休息，玩樂。Rest enough le den start my journey again, look for jobs..... 加油吧！！

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