Other Side of^me

? Sunday, February 3, 2013

3 Feb (Sun)

Wake up at 10am today.
Den watch 夜市人生 downloaded on ipad.
Till afternoon, watch tv, talk....
Den read story book and play game and listen music.

I love my relaxing Cooling Sunday

CNY coming~ 1 more week to go :)
Lets move on~ More or less i have clear my jobs on hand le... Good year good start

~~~加油，加油，加油~~~

I LOVE EUU. 9:54:00 PM

2/Feb (Sat)

Went to makeup n hairstyle lesson wif sis at Clarke Quay area.
I learnt the basic technique of make up. And some hairstyles.
Actually there are so many steps sia... From skin care to make up -.-"

I really learnt alot! Worth it...
Can see my mild make up?

Next is go shop at Central~
I bought a hello kitty planner cost me arn $19.90 (quite ex)
The Pen is from Finance Manager last time buy from Japan Puroland (Quite suit my planner)

Next is Movie (The Grandmaster)
Seriously tis show really cannot catch wat it saying... I think most of the time i doze off.
Eyes keep closing, n best is aircon SUPER COLD >.<"

Reach home 230am.
Overall it was a meaningful, education, happy day :)

I LOVE EUU. 9:40:00 PM

? Saturday, February 2, 2013

算命recently.
-Focus on love more than my work as work side is stable.
Prediction overall quite accurate. I gif it 80% acuracy.
It says abt my character, my work, my life, my past.

I shall do some sharing about my love prediction here.
-For the past 2 years, which is 2010 & 2011, my life is the most down n sad period for my 28yrs. (True)
-between 24-33, tis 10yrs, my love life won't be so smooth. In another word, not suitable for marriage.
-Best is after 33 den get married.
-I might encounter 2 marriage.
-Is better for me to find a 1984 (Rat) or 1978 (Horse). This 2 zodiac will dote on me. I no need worry much .In another words, thy love me more than i love them. 被爱比较幸福.
In my life, 羊(goat) & 马(Horse) is my 贵人
I asked the shifu, wat if nxt time my love is goat? Can mah?
He say can oso, but he wont dote on me. ( i was thinking to myself, quite true oso...haha)
He oso say my future husband will be someone financially stable, earn alot back, 不愁吃不愁穿
养的起我。( I was thinking, if tat time married UL, he can support me until kids grown up... is UL the one for me?)
But thinking back, among my frenz, i think im much much better than them.
Thy die die need work, need support tgt wif hubby.
Their hubby no car, salary oso on par with them. Hse need both to work den can support.
Diff frm me. in some way, im better as compare to them.
Difference is.......... their bf/hubby love them more than mine :( sad

About Work.
Is best I work in industry related to metal/ hardware stuff. 金属.
I was thinking back, tyres, ladder all consider hardware/metal stuff... Wow, so coincidence.
Den i ask shifu, i sell ladder good? Shifu say yes good for me. (hahaha, no wonder we got sales in every week tat time.)

About health
My health no good. Will have 女人病.
Not only this shifu told me this, last time see other fengshui shifu or palm reading shifu, all say same thing.
I guess is my life ba...
More or less i know myself de, my health normally not good. Tats y last time whn gg get married, i worried i can't have baby. I really worried abt this... I scare i will die early, tats y i choose to buy insurance.
At least when one day i die, my hubby or my parents will have something to at least help them financially...
Frm the day i earn my first dollar, I just wanna a protection for my love ones, tats the minimum i can do.

About Myself
Im born to be a leader, i like to order ppl do things. (haha so true oso, uncle always say i ctrl freak)
I like to do own business type rather than work for ppl.
My whole life no need worry abt eat n wear. Cos i wont poor until tat stage. Good life.
My life is good. except for love.
I dont haf good love, at least till 33 yrs old.
I think back, quite true oso.
Got guys woo me, i rejected.
But the one i accepted, disappoint me the most... Now I dont really dare to accept another one so easily le...

Back to love, 1984 de guys, i got 2. Din realise all the while thy are beside me only.
this 2 guys (named N & G ) i have known them super long. longer than UL.
N i know him about 3yrs
G i know him since his army time 5-6 yrs at least ba.
Last time they woo me before, but i nv accept them.
Till now, thy are still single n by my side.
N. know i breakup, he somehw hinted me, he wan me be wif him. Today he told me, last time gt ppl told him is best to haf a 1985 gf/wife. Suits him. (I was quite shock, thinking y so qiao de, he oso gt shifu told him)
His past long term r/s dont work in the end.

G. ask me be his gf thrice last time before i know UL, but i rejected him. Now just as normal frenz. nth much.

I not ready to accept N. Although i know he still loves me alot. Even last time whn i attached, he still waited for me... But I rejected him since last time even till now i oso reject.
He tat time want to apply flat wif me, but i still love UL n bond flat issue wif UL, i can't accept N.

Funny thing is... Tis 2 guys more handsome n young than UL.
I must be blind!
UL: i choose to be ur gf at tat time, not becos u got car. Seriously i oso duno y i choose u.
Maybe ur financially more stable? Maybe we both love to do own business? Maybe we both love DIY stuff?

Love is really hard to say.
Of so many guys, i choose u. duno issit a right or wrong move at tat time...
btw, N, G, UL all i know from online de. So Qiao haha

G from mIRC (sec sch times)
N from Tagged (4yrs ago)
UL from Tagged (3yrs ago)

Friends all asked me. What is my decision now?
Me: Pending flat.
Fren: U still wan to patch back with him?
Me: I duno.
Fren: After all the things he done to u, u still wan consider?
Me: I really duno.
Fren: Why duno?
Me: Cos now i wan to walk out of this situation so to think better n see clearer. Meanwhile see if he really can changed, know his mistake n cherish me?
Fren: How to see in such short period? Maybe he act?
Me: I willing give him last chance, see how he perform.

I was thinking deep in heart, I was very scare to trust u, really...Whole world object, only i willing gif chance, even u haf done all the inhuman acts to me, hurt me extremely hard.
There is an old saying: 江山易改，本性难移。
I dont dare to say u will change, i very very very scare to believe le...
But i still harbour the least 0.1% hope u show n prove miracle do exist.
I hope u r not those ppl who only last for few mths den back to true self.
I hope to see a total new u, a new u tat learnt ur mistake n dont ever ever do the same mistake again...

My wish for life partner is:
Rich or poor doesn't matter, i only hope to have someone who can love me wholeheartedly, no matter wat oso don't leave me alone. Treat me equally impt as his life or more impt than his life.
Don't lie to me. Don't hide things from me. Respect n can talk anything under the sun.

Finding someone like this is my biggest wish.
I think hard to find liao.
Worst come to worst, single lo. hahaha

Cny coming (i buy hao clothes n shoes le)
Valentine coming (spend alone liao ba)

WooooH~
Tmr i gg short course on makeup n hairstyling at clarke quay with sis. (2-6pm)
After tat sis gt prog gg out, so im alone again... gosh
Actually can find N out, but i dont think so i will ask him out.
Heart feel abit weird oso, seems lack of something hahahaa
Tmr see hw ba...

Sun oso home day. LOL jialat...

Maybe i just buy a air ticket then fly out travel, maybe i sleep whole day at home, maybe i spring clean room, maybe i watch drama at hm, maybe i book a rm den nua there whole day, maybe maybe maybe....

Life is full of unpredictable.
Follow wat my heart tells me is the best option i guess.

Wah, i use 3hrs to write this post.
Now 130am le... everyone is asleep le, left me here alone again -.-

GdniteZzz~

~A hug is worth a thousand words~

I LOVE EUU. 1:20:00 AM

? Thursday, January 31, 2013

Today 1/2 work, went amk hub wif sis n mum, bought 2 heels shoes, size 36... down-size.
Yes, i bought honey lemon to drink

Shople reach hm take a nap. Feeling quite sick.
Maybe past days n months not enuff rest i guess.. Everyday nv had a good sleep.
Now im running slight fever n flu n sore throat. Lucky tmr is Friday...
Not gg out tmr. coming hm straight frm work...

I oso keep sneezing.. is he thinking of me everyday? getting more n more each day? or less n less each day?

Now i gg do some research on course to study liao~

Love,
J

I LOVE EUU. 8:30:00 PM

Yawn~~~ so tired...
Ytd went out wif frances n huili.
MarinaSq eat sakae till arn 9pm den proceed to PanPacific Hotel, The atrium, drink...

Nice atmosphere there, very good place to sit down chit chat drink...
Got dress code de, lol, quite atas.
Their drink slightly costly, but worth it...
It has been quite sometimes i went out drink wif frenz.

Ytd reach hm arn 1230am le... bath le den lie on bed awhile den sleep at arn 130am.

Today wake up at 6am, as usual.

Slight headache... today i taking 1/2 day leave, later gg amk hub shop for shoes with mum n sis. den go walk den go hm rest...

This few days always got outing with frenz, go till quite late den cm home, i noe is unhealthy.
Suddenly i feel i have go back to few years ago, whn i haven start r/s during mlm period.
Everyday went drink, party, no need think so much.

After since dated wif him, my life changed for the past 2.5yrs.

From every weekend party to more healthy lifestyle.

Last time reach hm, he will always be there waits for me to fetch me hm whnever i drink or he will be at hm wait me to call him whn i reach hm, but now? i went hm (everyone was asleep).

Quite saddening actually...

This period i realise, my frenz all arn me, attached, busy, settled down etc...
No one really can fork out more time to acc me... Initially i feel really sad.
I wanted to go oversea travel san xing, c c look look, most of them not free.
last time still someone pei me go places i wan lo, although he is a super miser, but at least gt companion...

But all this setback makes me a more independant person.
I will jus do things i think is right for me, seriously other ppl view can only take for ref, final decision still lies wif me.

Even now i go out late, is not an issue anymore, wif who oso no issue.
Can consider quite a good news, cos i no need explain myself so much for every action.

I can feel the big diff whn im single now n attached in the past.
Can be sad, can be happy at times.
Of cos, is better to haf a companion, but he mus be someone who really loves me with all his heart, know how to think calmly before every action. Must haf strong sense of responsibility. Must be someone i can totally trust n rely on for life.
Hard to get it now, lol, so i better stand on my own feet...
I believe god will gif me my "pillar" when time due.

Suddenly rmb ytd huili told me, i slim alot, n my face is pale.
Thy keep ask me put on slight weight. I dont have a healthy good look.
Haha.. anw, doesnt matter. As usual i eat, drink, slp. Maybe quantity not as much as before nia.

I feel like gg short trip alone, maybe to nearby country ba. Genting? tw? Cameron? hk?
I feel like gg backpack try....
Still doing research for it... shall see how
I oso gt research on diploma on counselling, well, shall execute soon!

1230pm i gg knock off le...
Update again soon

I LOVE EUU. 12:18:00 PM

? Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Morning !
Quick post for today as i notice something this morning, and it has been pondering in my mind since i saw it.

Last nite nv slept well (as usual), tis morning 530am wake up. duno y, i login fb den see his fb.
den i go see the photo albums he posted. Wanting to go back see the photos of Pre-2013 (our memories).
But was quite taken back tat it was not there anymore.

Only left his colleagues, studies, frenz, transport, tw etc...
I rmb last time he told me he did not delete away, he jus hide it from public... but tat time he open to let me view tis album only.
Duno y tis time its gone... so sudden...

Wat does tis action of him means?
He is all ready to move on steadily with his new life?
Perhaps yes, Deleting our memories is the first start, is a good sign.

Knowing tat he is on the track of recovering, im glad oso. At least, both of us no nd to suffer so much, keep wondering or guessing each other intention or motive for each move.

Time to move on :)

Wish him happiness.

I LOVE EUU. 7:57:00 AM

? Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Ytd reach home almost 11pm. Meet wendy eat tok...

Chatted for many hrs, heart to heart tok.. Know her for so long, now then noe tat we actually can click so well. We exchange our life journey stories, very dramatic life story both of us have before...

Every nite i need to play hp games till i cannot tahan till almost doze off den i can slp.

Which i think is arn midnite le ba...Im confident one day, soon, i can sleep very happily n well like past... I Believe i can do it !!!

Everyday will auto wake up at 530am, although my alarm set 6am. hmmmmm, reach office arn 720am.

Tis morning, suddenly feel very hungry, although mummy gt prepare one small cake for me, but i feel nt enuff, so...... i went to get more! haha

Well, today I cleared all my things on hand for work le... dun leave any backlog in case future i might not be able to fulfil the job well due to some reasons....

After work, as usual, walk to paya lebar take 76.

Waited for a long time before it came. On bus i listen to songs...

Feel abit weird, my iphone de songs all is wedding songs sia... last time is prepare for wedding dinner to play de, but i forgot to change...haha... but no choice, no songs to listen liao...

I listen till fall asleep, den suddenly a girl knock dao me den i wake up, lol, lucky if not i miss stops liao.

Haha, den gt a interesting guy on bus, keep peek at me, he alight 1 stop before me. I notice him thru my side window, so i turn right to see him, den he jiu act blur look away.

Now i have replace back to those normal songs lo, so nxt time travelling alone at least got music pei me.

Today reach hm arn 8pm le... tat bus made me waited for 1/2 hrs at least sigh.

Tmr meeting frances n huili for dinner n drink at city area.

Been such a long time i saw huili le.

I choosen my clothes to wear for tmr, i look into the mirror i was quite shock, i slim alot haha swee.

Den i go choose the slight high heels, but i very sad.. Normally i wear 37 de, but whn i tried on my heels, omg lo. super loose.. Hmmmm... duno issit i slim le den my foot size oso smaller?

need buy new shoes again liao..

I need to buy many things to replace my wardrobe le...

From undergarments to clothes to shoes. Everything -.-

Although my sudden slim down de method is due to break up (a sad thing), but looking on the optimistic side, I obtain the standard tat I always wanted last time. Now finally fulfil, shud be happy !

Now is 11pm le. duno wat time i will fall asleep again sia...

tmr shipment n chill out day, need go rest liao

Before logging off,

Hope he is doing well, moving on towards the future (correct attitude n thinking n well improved NEW him)

Jy UL

Shall update more on thur as tmr might reach hm late

Yawns~ Gdnite

~~~ Looking forward to Each Day ~~~

I LOVE EUU. 10:56:00 PM

? Sunday, January 27, 2013

Wooohhhhhh~~~
Finally just finish uploading Amei Concert.
It was a superb one!!!
She sing all the way from 8pm to 1150pm!

This was the longest concert i ever attend!
AMEI ROCKS!!

Here are some photos:

I LOVE EUU. 8:35:00 PM

? Saturday, January 26, 2013

26-01-2013 (Sat)

Today i wake up fresh n happy!

Brand new day, brand new start.

Mr Postman came~ bringing me my new dressy for 2013 cost around $50

U know wat size i wear? Is XS !!! OMG

Next is...

My new spectacles! This is my 2nd spect cost me around $250.

My Astigmatism increase to 100 le. Still alright.

Next is...
My Adopted Ger Wodedech from Ethiopia (Part of Africa)

Finally is...
AMEI CONCERT !!!

After so many years, finally i get to see it ONE MORE TIME !
Wooohooooo! Sis treat me go de, $168 ticket
Hehe, all well prepared now, Camera, Lightstick, Water and VOICE

Shall end here for now, gg out soon lo
Stay tune for more updates

Misses

I LOVE EUU. 4:41:00 PM

25-01-2013

Time flies, it has been 1month since our breakup. Our r/s lasted for 2.5yrs...
Many things happened. I have grow up n learnt alot frm this r/s...
Im really thankful to u, my ex.

We have cover almost 90% of sg, no matter by foot or by car..
no matter go where, images of us will arise in my mind.
Im not being emo, but jus sentimental. memories can never be erase, so i will keep it in the deepest corner in my heart
I can only take a step at a time for now, not harbouring any hopes for the future.
For now, i just wanna do the things which i always wanted
-Upgrading myself, input new skills, knowledge.
-Lend a helping hand to the needy.
-Use my whole life, travelling to every corner of the world (within my finance means of cos) eg: 7 wonders of the world.
However, my top wish list is :- http://evakitty.evaair.com/en/
Tokyo(Puroland) and Taiwan (Hello kitty restaurant)

Now my only wish is looking forward to every coming day, cherishing every moments i have in life now.
=Spend your every moment like there is no tomorrow=

Song for you

I LOVE EUU. 3:51:00 PM

? Sunday, September 18, 2011

I SMURF MY DARIA <3 Loves <3

I LOVE EUU. 9:48:00 PM