Other Side of^me

? Tuesday, February 9, 2010

today after work meet up wif qiwei. (my ex. colleague at DW). The last time we met up was July(dajie wedding). Den we went to eat long john. After tat walk arn, got 2 stores tat sell hello kitty stuff, wee!! wee!!

At one of the bigger kitty store, lvl 2, at the entrance, i saw one kitty cost arn $180. quite big de, den the eye super kawaii is like (n_n) hahahahah!! den got one smaller version de, cost arn $90.

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, ex :(

then we proceed to another kitty store, i think on lvl 3. inside i saw something, which me n erjie saw before, den er jie got send me their pics de. omG lo!!!!

i kip thinking de things appear infront of me sia.... happily i go take up and see. omg, is really nice lor!! den i look arn, finding its partner, but sad, the sales ger say sold out liao. den i ask tis tis red one how much, she told me $30. den i say, i wan the pink also, can order mah, den she say, sorry no more le, quite limited, cannot order anymore liao. den i say ouhh~~ nvm...

She recommend me another pink color de kitty, i say, i dun wan, coz i wan tat pair..

Sigh~ nvm, slowly look arn, if not i go suntec there de arcade catch.

After shopping, went daiso n spotlight see things, i wan buy the stand for my beads accessories, but can't find it.

After tat jiu proceed to MRT le...

Then qiwei pass me a present. tis present hor, is my last yr birthday de, wah... frm last july till now feb. 7mths liao. LOL, my present rot in her hse for 7mths liao, finally today can meet out for dinner to pass me sia. Is a mouse pad wif a water cushion below, can place our wrist on it.. really cool...
1 more thing to my kitty collection ^_^

i think im really noob lor, whn im alone.. :(

today after work meet qiwei at dhoby ghaut mrt. den she reach 1st, she say she mit me at PS. den i say okok, i reach le call her. then hor, i took mrt frm tpy to dg. den hor, i duno is i toot or wat, i nv think got wat exit or wat, i jus go out frm the exit i saw lo, somewhere near the This Fashion de exit.

Then pro me, i come out of the control station liao, den i realise, er.... whhere is PS? omg lo, den i go look at the board, dun haf lo :( den i faster call sis, tel her, i lost liao... den she ask me at where, i say at this fashion de exit, den she say i go wrong side, shud go the north east line there de exit, gt direct up. i say, den i go inside again den go NEL there ar?

she say i sot. ask me go out, den cross the traffice light. den i go lo.

then i pro, i go out, i turn wrong direction, i turn left den saw park mall, den i see le so weird, i stone there awhile den see... den i realise, oHHHhhh, is on the right there, den many ppl crossing the road, so i follow them...

CrY, i so noob sia... i alone will lost diao... sigh~

if i go shopping alone, i sure take alot of time to reach hm. lolsss, cfm will lost. faint si wo.

Funny me~ but ppl arn me all know, if i call them, ask them for direction, they also wun feel surprise, cos im a noob at shopping route.... LOLsss shyyyy >.<"

tats all for today, 12am liao.. i wan knoonzz~ gd net~

I LOVE EUU. 11:02:00 PM

? Monday, February 8, 2010

Today at work so so ler, got standard thing, clear 100+ emails, record things, do 2 shipments.. nth much liao... abit sian... everyday same thing. Hope after new yr, everything will be diff bah~

After work mit up wif frances. initially she say can't mit, as she gt things on, but arn 3plus she called me ask me wan go out mah, i say ok lo. she say wan go J8 charles n keith buy voucher for her fren bday. then we jus mit there lo. Have a dinner liao, den come back amk.
Nth much to shop also.

She haf the habit of walking back hm frm interchange, which is arn 5bus stops sia. lol, whn she told me she wan walk back i O_O look at her. lol, she ask me take bus hm. but mai la, jus walk lo, treat it as a exercise after dinner.. shy.....

Reach my blk, sit downstairs, cos jes wan ask frances abt make up de skills.
i think we sit arn 1hr plus.. reach hm arn 945pm le bah.

Today i really happy. coz hor, i learnt something new today!!!!!
Today shifu teach me how to make a bracelet. haha!!! i so happy sia, can make for ppl liao, can make to sell liao, i learnt 1 new thing liao~~!!!
i will work hard, learn more frm shifu de... i wan to learn as much as i can, den i can make for ppl... seeing those ppl wear/use the thing i made, their happy expression made me feel so much satisfactory~!!!

I LOVE EUU. 10:31:00 PM

now is 2am.
faint. i wrote those 3 posts since 11plus til now.
quite tired actually. but i wan faster post it 1st, in case i STM again.

continue to say, Reach hm at 10pm. den go bath n wash hair, den immediately i on PC. nv tot of gg audi de. i jus wan to post blog le, den jiu go slp. but i suddenly thinking, wah, will my audi cpl break wif me anot, tis 2 days i online audi nv see him also. lol. i siao liao, den i hand itchy go login audi, leaving my blog webby open.
i thinking login see gt the split request anot, jiu log out. but i kaypo, go see who online
then i saw jie, jade, tomo, aunty.
wahhh suddenly so happy, thy all playing in the rm tgt neh~ den i go inside lor.
den i saw jie caption is new start. initially i tot, wah she married liao ar? but whn i go inside the rm, she told me mit her cpl. dazed huh. i stun tio.

i was thinking, where is tat LS. den my stupid brain kip thinking those kns thing, den start to so called quarral wif jie liao. i was thinking, y in the 1st place, we quarral coz of LS, she can becos of ls break her promise towards me, den now, she can break off wif ls den cpl another guy so easily..den last time quarral de things, break promise de things, hurt dao me de things, all jiu suan liao mah?
den she say me, y i hold grudges? last time i do those (invade her privacy) she also nv say me.
i really duno... i nv hold grudges towards her... i dun wan to quarral wif her especially regards audi de thing... well, i htink other than audi de things, we nv quarral before also.
today we did it again. she jus tel me wan scold her jiu scold, she wun say anything. hais... i dun even intend to scold her, n who m i haf the right to scold her also... im jus her mei, even her parents dun say her, y shud i?

Sigh~~~~~~~~~~
At tat pt jus now, i jus thinking, someone i really trusted alot alot, break promise to me in rl... Im really hurt n it really affect our r/s. She told me even if we quarral, our rl also wun change, wil be the same. den i ask her, same mah? she say ya. den she ask me i dun? i reply her no....

Sad rite? im bad rite? i also think so. but tats wat i feel. She can let the past goes, the incident which i dis-respect her privacy thing. But i seems to be so petty, kip say her abt break promise de things...
although it has affect me, but i also duno y, i still treat her as gd as before. although sometimes i selfish or petty, say mai care abt her liao, but i can't. Say nia, i can't do it.
Coz all tis while, whn im alone, she is always here to pei me. whn she noe i like tis, like eat tis, wan go where, she will try to accomodate n fulfil. Among all frenz i haf over all tis yrs, she is one tat really treat me very gd.

Im always so cong dong.. shoot things out without thinking. is my fault again. i think i can't change de bah.. ppl arn me say until wan vomit blood liao, i also same old pattern. i tot my heart can be wider de. i tried n tried, but y the results doesn't change much de....

She kip forgive n forget, im so guilty............
So sorry. i really disturbed dao jie de life liao~~
She always treat me so gd, even jus now i say her, she also nv blame me, n stil ask me go slp in a concern manner. crY~!!!!
Er JIe is always so nice to me....
Er Jie kip buy me gift, bring me go eat, bring me go places i wan to go, treat me so gd.
but i so bad~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kip bully her...

I really dun like audition. Always hai me quarral wif jie. i really hate it
But i noe jie thru audi de.... cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Other den erjie, no more ppl whom i can tell my things liao. Dajie put me aeroplane today... sad si wo, n i haf given up liao, she always seems so busy, 2yrs of holding on, im really really tired. is jus like a 1-way traffic... :( y am i always the one holding, y m i alway feel so xin ku. si dajie, she say after cny den mit, although now i say i mai care abt her liao, lol, maybe after cny u will see me post, i go date dajie out again. hahaha, i cheap rite? Faint.

Er jie is slightly better, but i feel we abit far as compared to the past le. i duno she gt realise anot, but i feel it. Like our everyday gt contact lifestyle, is lesser than before le... duno is i sensitive or wat, but jus feeling... im trying hard not to let go so easily. hope we can last very long bah.
For dajie i can hold 2yrs n im still holding, for erjie, i hope i can also...
I will try my best not to let go anyone of them.
Really can't bear lo...
I dun haf so many 25yrs to find another jie ;mua

Finish posting.. time now is 230am

I LOVE EUU. 1:48:00 AM

Saturday 7/Feb
Mit cong ge 3pm at ion. it has been a while since we last met.
went to eat swensen. wah, i order the duno wat. spicy like hell. i eat until my nose fluid flow out i also duno. is jes told me de. LOL, really eat until numb diao, nose fluid flow out also no feeling. faint.

Den i see the ice cream buffet. den i think of jie again. i say wan treat her go de. she say after cny den go bah. i see gt alot of toppings sia. haha, ;shy... can eat die her liao =x each person arn $18+ without main dish, i think so. if wif main dish is arn.... $12 plus? doesn't matter also.

AFter eating we went arn all those so called branded stores. jes wan see wallet. walk very long sia. i think a few hrs bah. we gt go paragon, taka see also. in the end, finally settle down on GUCCI. lol. tat wallet cost almost $500. quite nice also, worth it bah, coz of the brand n material. can use very long liao. haha, i nv in my life had such ex de wallet or bag before. jes also.
Last time i saw the furla de bag, i wan buy de, but cost arn 1k+. i think is 1yr liao. i wanted to save, but whn i save dao le, the model gone liao. ;sob
everytime whn i save dao le, the thing is gone. sigh~

After tat, we go mac sit awhile, den i wan order the curly fries de, but the person say not available liao. sadddddddddddddddddd.... i nv eat dao :( really dun haf le mah? i duno~~ ;sob
then cong ge say bring us go clarke quay there eat a ramen.
gt 2 outlets, one at central, one at liang court. den we go eat at central de.

WoW!!! really nice sia... although is spicy, but hor, not as spicy as the one i ate at swensen. lol... is really nice lo, the char siew, the meat all tat. shiok. is a jap restuarant. not ex also. we 3 go eat arn $52. really nice trying.
den i also duno y, if gt nice thing, i will think of erjie den wan bring er jie go eat. lol.
i jus love to share wif her nice things, hope nxt time can bring her go try. maybe she loves it also.

Reach hm arn 10pm.

I LOVE EUU. 1:34:00 AM

After posting tat super long outing de. i suddenly rmb, wat i done on fri.
Fri i on leave, mit up wif aunty at amk hub. jes also wif me. den we go eat the roti prata at amk hub n the anderson ice cream.
keke, is really nice. nxt time gt chance can bring jie go eat the roti prata at amk hub. coz i rmb last time i say wan bring her go thomson there eat the prata... :)

After tat we proceed to aunty hse. keke, jes wan play wif rayden. keke, he super super cute. whn i go in, he kip come to me, bring toy to me, tok to me. haha, den jes say, jie ar, he noes u lei. i say ya lor. last time i came i kip play wif him mah, tats y he noes me. ;shy

after tat i help aunty fix the audi to window mode, dn i play audi. lol, abit ps lo. nv play wif rayden, den he kip come to me, coz he not familiar wif jes initially. but after awhile he n jes was quite close liao, den he mai come find me le. ahhahaha, cute rayden.
Left aunty hse arn 7plus bah... den i reach hm arn 8plus. haha..

really happy n thanks aunty. the mango milkshake tat her maid made is really nice!!!
Hope she like the chocolates, is for tricia n rayden de. keke, nxt time gt time den go her hse play.

I LOVE EUU. 1:26:00 AM

Seriously i got STM. Thur n fri wat happen, i really forget liao. why i rmb wed happen de things coz i write it in my notebk tat time.

Now is midnite 1216am Monday. i can only recall wat happen ytd n today.
Let me tok abt ytd so called old fam outing ba.

Total gt 8ppl including me.
Inside i only noe n seen jie n kaze. the rest duno liao...
Mit 12plus at marina. i was really kj to mit new frenz actually de. i think my gut really gone diao, over tis 2yrs in admin industry.
Mit jie 1st den go walk arn at marina.

Meet up with them le! seeing them, i dun feel kj liao.. duno y~ all of them r nice ppl. funny also. i thnk among them, i tok to jie the most bah, follow by kaze. lol, the rest i duno wat to tok abt also. thy seems to noe each other very long liao...

Went to the duno wat Irish pub eat lunch? lol, i 1st time afternoon timing step inside a pub. is my first time sia. normally i go pub is nite? haha, thy really cute. den 1st time i go pub drink ice lemon tea? haha, really cute dee. my first time given to them liao ;shy
After eat, go arcade. meanwhile some of them play pool/billard.
After tat go eat swensen ice cream. LOL, think of it, i everytime go out wif jie, sure gt swensen de sia. faint, den sure gt my mint ice cream de sia. lol, faint.

Everything ends arn 6plus? den after tat jie kip say go where sia. i ask her think she say duno. i say go sentosa, go vivo she ask me for wat. ;wild
say liao she hiam tis hiam tat, nv say she jiu ask me go where. really tu xue. lol
in the end i say go chinatown see my kitty. ;shy
kaze bring us walk frm marina to chinatown. lol... think of it, everytime go out wif jie, sure nd to walk a longgggggggg way de. haha

FInally reach chinatown point le! wee, tat kaze really nice, pei us walk there.
Then we found the kitty shop, wee!! happy sia. den see gt wat special kitty things. i dun intend to buy anything de, coz kitty things is really ex. small keychain cost more than $10++. then jie saw a cow kitty, can make into hp keychain. den she ask me wan ma, i say ok lo...
i noe she wan find a keychain for me to hang on my hp. duno issit last time i told her, i dun anyhow hang things at my hp, except for dajie, her or jes de nia. the rest i dun hang at my hp. den i duno issit tat time gt hint her, i waiting for her to buy me one to hang. tats y she kip finding for me? i not sure la. but anyway, she buy me a kitty keychain. small n cutie~~ shy. i love it alot. now my hp got dajie n erjie gif me de keychain liao. 2 cows. haha. is always with me de, coz my hp seldom leave far frm me. ^_^ tats y i reply ppl sms fast. LOL shy

After tat, i find it stil early, coz is sat mah, i dun like go hm early also, go hm also nth to do. so drag jie go walk. den go buy beads. After tat i ask jie bring me go those parsa malam. cny everytime gt de.
Den hor, really faint sia. ALOT of ppl sia. faint. i c the ppl my heart pump very fast, coz i scare i lost.LOL, funny rite? but is true lor...
Actually i gt one weird thingy. if im in a mrt or bus or very crowded de area, i can't breath well. especially in MRT. coz whn everyone is standing so close tgt, i find it hard to breath properly. duno issit a sickness or wat :( tats y sometimes i prefer go the longer way.
Then whn i see those crowd, 1st thing i think is to grab her liao. haha, i really scare lost... coz wif dad, mum or sis, i auto will hold their hands whn in crowded area. lol, lucky jie noe my pattern liao if not i really kana squeeze til where liao. haha

after so many yrs, i think gt at least 4-5yrs, i nv been to chinatown de parsa malam liao (pre cny). im really happy er jie bring me go...
After "squeeze wif crowd", jie bring me go a hawker eat laksa! weee, i say so long de laksa, finally eat liao. keke... think of it, she funny la. say gt one katong laksa, den go search for some time liao, finally found it liao, BUT store close. LOL, see her expression -_-" i really wan laugh. haha, but xin ku her la, help me find the delicious katong laksa, although i nv get to eat it, but im really appreaciate. i ask her wat is tis hawker call, n she can tell me chinatown hawker?
really faint si wo. haha, she really lame~ =x

After eat we jiu slowly make our way back le. on the way back, i see those ba gua, wahhhh, all crowded de sia. so many ppl Q-ing to buy. but jie told me tis yr they nv buy, coz ex.
1kg $40plus huh. ex mah? i duno also, coz i seldom eat ba gua.

Finally reach hm le, i reach at arn 11pm. den i think jie reach arn 1130? she say her mum nag at her. i was guessing probably coz she go out whole day, den go hm late bah. n true lo, i ask her issit she go out late, she say ya, part of it lo. :(
really ps make er jie go hm late, coz i drag her go chinatown shop. i noe her mum also worried for her, coz she seldom go out whole day den reach hm late bah...

for me is diff, sometimes whn i reach hm late, i wun be surprise to see my family all go slp liao, only whn i open door den mum wake up nia. sometimes i feel i really nv think for jie bah. kip ask her go out til so late. she is always those homely person, seldom go out tat often, n late de bah.

For me, my parents gif up on me liao, lol, last time thy kip ask me dun go out late or watever, i nv care also. i jus tell them, i gg out wif frenz, wun be early, or duno wat time will reach hm. dun nd wait for me.
sometimes i will jus tel them i go drinking n clubbing wif frens, wun be hm early, earliest i think is 2am bah. lolsss... tat time i rmb, my drinking kakis hear me tell my mum so direct, thy shock also. i dun like to bluff mah, gt wat jiu say wat lo, if thy dun let me go, i also will go de. LOL, my parents really cannot tahan me... :(
thy say me until mai say liao... last time i reach hm at 3-4am(latest is 5am bah). although daddy will say abit, he will tel mummy to tell me, he nv tell me straight also. but he noe i wun care also.
i wan do de things i jiu wan. although last time i gt drink until puke like duno wat, gt incident where i tot i lost my wallet, make til my parents nd to help me wif it. thy also nv scold me at all.
Deep down, i noe their gd meant also.

Suddnely i rmb, i ask jie before. issit good or bad tat she met me?
she nv gif me a ans whn i ask her. she jus kip laugh. den i tel her i sad liao, coz if now she ask me mit her is good or bad, i will straight gt an definite ans. n my reply will be good.
in the end she tell me she nv regret knowing me. wah, i really gandong upon seeing tis.
den in my heart i was thinking. i also nv regret knowing her, but i regret quarraling with her :(

She is really a nice person overall. someone who dote on me alot. someone who gif in to me alot, someone who seldom voice out her unhappy towards me, someone who forgive n forget.
Seeing her, i kip thinking, am i really a petty person? m i really someone who hold grudges? m i someone who forgive but nv forget?
I think in many ppl's eye, yes, janice is tis type of person. thru conversation wif some ppl, i can feel which type of person in their eye. although thy wun say out, but can see. actually i dun deserve ppl kind treatment. coz i nv do well or enuff for other ppl also.
Although every relationships, i put in alot. colleagues, frenz, bgr.
ppl always remind me not to put in too much at a time, i can say ok, i wun. but i can't do it. Put in too much, if things goes wrong, the impact back will hurt alot alot...
I nv regret treating ppl gd, i nv regret trusting ppl so much, i nv regret knowing anyone, i nv regret doing anything for anyone...

I appreciate. Some ppl let me see their true colors, some ppl let me see their nice side, some their ugly side, some their innocent side, some their selfish side. i hurt ppl before, n i expect to get it back one day also. coz gt retribution de mah, i believe de.

No matter wat. i nv regret the things i do, since the 1st day, i make friends wif ppl. which is.... kindergarden? or start frm pri sch bah... i stil haf memory whn im in pri sch. Seriously, i really rmb, who treat me gd, who treat me bad, who left me alone, who pei me. all inside my mind....
every stage of my life, is clearly recorded inside my mind.
But im seriously not someone who will hold grudges. If i really do, in the initial stage, i will break off the bond le, but im really not tis type of person....trust me ;sob

I LOVE EUU. 12:11:00 AM

? Sunday, February 7, 2010

Wed 3/Feb
Mit er jie go eat sushi.
Jie bought me:
2 鮑貝. (nv tot she will buy for me, i tot she buy for her family de, cos she buy 5, n i always hear frm her tat her mum loves it. so i tot she buy so many can leave til cny. but surprise to see tat she gif me 2..)
Honey milk tea ( i seldom drink milk tea, coz i dislike the smell. but jie buy me the honey milk tea w/pearls. i go hm drink liao really love it alot. n the pearl is nice. jie say the KOI store is famous for its pearl. previous time i nv add pearl she kip laugh at me. n i drink n eat liao, is really nice.)
Honey (i nv drink honey + water before. 1st time having honey to add wif water myself. long time ago jie say wan buy for me but nv. now she bought it le. lol. i forget she told me is gd for face or throat sia. watever also, i noe is gd for health jiu hao.)

Jie kip buy things for me. really abit wasteful. now month start only, n she kip buy things for me, although she say is for my mum or family de, but i noe de... if not for me, she buy for my family for wat sia. hope she can dun spend more now, if not mth end, she no money, she dun wan go out wif me liao :(

I LOVE EUU. 11:40:00 PM

? Monday, February 1, 2010

Sorry Mummy, i made u drop tears today...

I LOVE EUU. 1:49:00 AM

? Saturday, January 30, 2010

Wee!! today is a happy outing~!

Noon time, make my way to er jie hse- give her stingray n curry (mummy's speciality). Wan to surprise her, go her hse, pass to her. Have already planned to ask mummy help me cook le, coz erjie like stingray, den i find tat mum cook de stingray not bad, so jus plan lo.

As last sat is grandfather annvi. so postpone til today lo. I think duno mon or tue i tried to test er jie see whether she gt go out tis sat anot liao.. lol. i noe if i tel her i wan bring things let her eat, she sure mai de. Bobian gt to tell her i meeting frenz nearby wdls lo.

12pm go out, reach there arn 1plus. kip call her make sure she reach hm liao... abit ps, kip call her. Afterall ok lo, pass to her liao, i feel so happy. hope er jie n family likes the food bah.. (although the stingray tis time, very spicy.. -_-" mummy put too much chilli le!) BUt i still really grateful to mummy, for helping me cook. ;shy

After tat, tgt we go to cwp. Jie treat me eat mac, but hor, the twister fries out of stk sia. lol... 1st time i wan eat de things, out of stk. but nvm la, dun haf jiu dun haf ^_^

Then we shop arn.. then hor! tis er jie, bluff me. say she wan buy for herself, den kip tel me duno mum wil say her anot, hm so much bear liao stil buy bear.

whn she say wan buy tis bear, i was thinking to myself... she wan buy for me issit?

but then i kip hear her say duno mum will say her anot, which nicer ar. den i ps to ask her, issit for me. lol, if she say no den i ps liao~

on the other hand, i think she noe i like tis bear alot. i 1st time see care bear wif apple pic infront de lo. Since young, i gt watch carebear de cartoon, but i nv haf 1 carebear before. i think tis apple bear is the newer version of carebear bah, i also not sure...

Really happy coz tat smart heart bear is really for me de lor! haha~ yippee!

let me show u my baby S.H (Smart heart) bear... My 1st Carebear

Cutie :D :D :D

1st thing i do when reach hm is to show daddy n mummy my bear bear. Thy say nice!! keke

Then hor, one more funny thing i encounter at arcade...

Abit ps lo... faint... let the picture do the sayings bah~ ma lu sia.... si jie kip laugh at me ;wild

(See how many balls are stuck at the net there? crY!!! sad die me... i throw one den kana stuck, so i tot of throwing another one to make it go dwn, but kana stuck also.. faint sia... in the end.... zao~ pro me =_=")

LAstly, teach er jie do star star...

For a 1st time beginner, she consider above average ler.. nice jie ^_^

(Yellow-Er Jie, Blue-Me)

Have a enjoyable day today, thanks for the bear n those kitty stuffs.

Hope we can go out tgt more often.

Like wat u say, no matter wat happen, rl won't change de. I always believe Er Jie de..

I LOVE EUU. 10:18:00 PM

? Thursday, January 28, 2010

Wed 27 Jan
Went to watch Tooth fairy wif er jie @ amk hub..wow, is really a funny show sia...
We buy bubble tea, di gua inside. lol, shy~~~ i drink champage nia~
Is a nice show ~~!! ppl who haven watch can go watch ya ^_^

Thur 28 Jan
Har ChOooo~ middle of the nite kip sneezing, wake up also kip sneeze. until i reach officce, i think i sneeze n flu until my voicce changeeeee. "sexy voice" ;shy...
lol... den i feel feverish, cough, flu... wah, 1 morning i think i drank at least 2bottles of water.
Feel like dehydrating sia..

Den i think my mood comes again sia.. same old things happen. really ma de. lol, me again.

Oh ya, today morning i ate 1 pkt of vegetarian bee hoon. afternoon i feel very hungry, everytime i flu i feel very hungry. so i ate 1 pkt char kway tiao + papaya. ;shyy.. my coll also shock, i ate so much. den hor, after lunch i go find shifu.
I kip pestering her teach me do the heart shape keychain, coz i promise learn liao gif it to ppl de.. but after several days tries, shifu stil can't get it.... ;sobss.. den i tel shifu i go bugis there buy the sample we saw, den let her go yan jiu.. easier bah...
hmm i shall make my way to illuma one of this days.

den shifu say, she teach me learn other things 1st, so today hor, i learn how to make slipper!
keke, very cute.but dunoo issit becos i sick, i watch her do til i wan fall asleep. last time i wun de. maybe coz of my fever n flu bah~~ meanwhile i suddenly tot dao, oh dear, i forget tel erjie i brb, coz i see the time is like 230-245 le. die, den boss also gt come finance see me learn the things, den i very ps tel boss, wait ar. abit more jiu hao le... den boss laugh n go back to warehse. sobss

go back, i say the wrong things out again, make er jie mood. sigh~ not gu yi de. coz i think she waited very long, den i nv tink properly jiu say out the cannot say word, cry! wo bu shi gu yi de.
Den war start again lo... plus i nv gif in, nv think properly jiu say :( i noe too late oncce words is typed out. Same thing happen again n again. faint. i so pc... go toilet also dun wan look into the mirror, really ma de.
Same pattern, she after awhile as per usual lo, funny like nth happen. **guilty**

i OT til 650pm. den er jie call me, say if by 7 i nv go hm, sat jiu dun go out. i waS like huh!!
faint. den i kj, close all docs, den kip , off switch, close warehse shutter, den go finance rm put key, den faster get out of the building. all happens within 5mins. pro me... faint sia.

Coz i was thinking, wahhhhh tis sat er jie treat me mac fries!! lol, den maybe can eat mint icce cream! lol, duno y i feel so happy whn gt ppl say wan BRING me go. ;shyyyyyyyy, im a baby~
tats wat i think before i reach hm.

But hor, some things happen after i reach hm... no need say, my fault de. is a standard proccedure i think, for me... i really wan bang wall die... duno y
kip repeat n repeat. each time i think im getting more n more worst ... many things i jus shoot out w/o filter. tu xue.. i make her tu xue, wu nai, no comment, mood, everything la... say liao i also feel like slapping myself go die better.

i dun wan to promise or say anything now. cos i noe say no use. action is the most convincing result bah. best part for me now is.. i nv cry now sia, y? coz i nv feel sad abt myself, im feeling anggry abt myself. seriously, if i haf a fren like me, i sure slap tat person to duno where liao, n ask tis idiot fk off the sight off me.
Fortunate is... tis er jie, haven say tat to me.. i feel im now on the dangerous zone liao, which is anytime i will encounter tis? but 2nd tot, i think she... haiz, too kind...

Sian le, i gt many things wan say de... deep down inside, i gt many things wan share de... i gt many stories to tel de... i gt many things wan do de....
Can i still pour things to her? will she stil willing to listen?
Other than her is dajie, omg, tis dajie, i really no comment. lol
i sms her, 2 days she nv reply. den i sms again, finally she reply. but she ok, still bother to reply me. lol, my other fren say she sms or call her, she nv even reply.
Mus i feell phew~ abt tis? i kip laughing at myself. coz sometimes i really feel tired alone...

Maintaining is really hard. Making frenz, knowing frenz is really a very simple job. Most impt is maintain! omg, i think towards passing marks i still got some way to go neh~
Please gif me many chances, best is unlimited chances, gif me ample time to learn n change.
I think looking back the past n the now me, i really gt change, not alot, but abit.
I tried not to haf tat mentality, towards ppl who haf comments abt my character, (take it or leave it)
Last time de me yes, i always tell ppl tis. now no, i take wat ppl say abt me n i wan to change. but i nd help also.. im not god, not robot=Can key in formulae to program...

Interpersonal skills in virtual world, i think i really nd to improve on it. As for rl de me, im least worried abt it. so far, i think i still can handle n maintain r/s wif ppl well in rl speaks. shy ler, see my face so thick, i look back my post i also wan puke~

1140 le, now im feeling so hot, eat med le, temp is 36.9. ;shyyyy
Wan zzzz le.....
mus say ps & wan an to er jie :( coz whn i say to her, she offline. think she nv c bah.
Er jie mai angry or sian le.....
Can i stil haf fries n ice cream on sat mah? /?_?

I LOVE EUU. 11:01:00 PM