? Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Today in office, suddenly after lunch, i was feeling every cold... Shivering, so i took a short rest.. (on n off rest till 5plus) hmmm... Not i slack, is i really feel hot n cold constantly....
Den bobian after work, still nd to went down to lau pat sat find client gif her products(exchange). Delay for a week le... 6plus reach, stay there eat n wait for them to be abit free den tok to her. After all, left the place at arn 8pm. After tat i thinking of gg dw pass dage the bracelet back, (paiseh also, on hold so long). so i sms n gave him a call later and ask him wait for me awhile.
When i reach, hmmm... atmosphere not very right. How to say? abit low bah... Den i saw dage n dajie toking.. Serious face thy have.. I also dun dare to tok rubbish to them. Thy mus have problems need to discuss bah... I just pass dage the bracelets n was thinking, dun disturb their meeting, faster go off. Then i saw dajie expression, hmmm.. seems like she cried ? i also dun wan to ask her so much, coz i noe she also wun say anything de. so mights well dun bother her 1st. I tried to spice up the atmosphere but can't seems to spark up sia... Haiz.
I noe wats the problem, juz tat i bo chap. Coz i can't help. Not i dun wan to help, is i simply can't help them to the extend that will really boost. Im trying also, but always no results.
Like i told myself before, i will want them to be happy, not to be worried and bothered abt my things. I just hope to have something, so thy can at least feel abit (^_^). But till now, i haven done tat yet.. Damm it.
Many things i noe and can agar feel wat is happening, although i seldom go dwn. From both my mentors' face, everything, can say i sensitive bah... Coz i m a super sensitive person. But i dun wan to be so direct to them. Juz act like i m a simply bo-chap person bah... Let them dislike better than let them have hopes. Coz whn hopes shattered, one hurts very much, wounds very deep. But whn one dislike the other, very soon the wounds will heal and forget.
Im not acting 伟大. Just that my personality is born like that. Rather die for others than letting them die.
救的了别人、救不了自己
I LOVE EUU. 8:44:00 PM
