? Saturday, March 22, 2008
Finally, my probation is over. 5 March'08.
Feel relieve coz i dun like to be bonded with any contract.. Den stil got privilages, leaves, etc..
Benefits is really gd. But.... I'm still making myself adapt to tis industry. 3mths to me, is not enuff for me to see where i stand. Right now, i stil dun have the confidence to continue, to tell myself actually i can make it in shipping. Why? This 3mths i really make myself 'devote' to it, learn as much thing as i can, ask as much enquiries as i can..
Now, basic shipping doc. i can handle, basic delivery arrangement i can handle, basic billing i can handle. But, i always kana "say" by my manager. When got problems occurs, she will question me why. I explain to her le, but she will always have her own "sayings" to shoot me back. Den she always say i got things dun wan to ask. But the fact is i got ask le.. i ask my senior, coz she is so called my immediate trainer. But i ask her, she everything not sure, dunno. ask me to go n approach manager. In the end, i kana the arrow.. Haiz..... I got do, but ppl say i never. Bad life huh... I have controlled my temper le, i dun wan to argue or do futher explanations tat the fact is i got asked, juz tat shi jie dunno.. Haiz, wats the point, juz take it and swallow dwn, LL do the work. Over time, i believe tat i will become a "no-feeling and black" idiot,. coz take too much "black wok" le.. hahhaa.... Till now, i feel tat i got abit STM, always forget things. But i think is i too ....., plus the "surprise" i've got. hmmm.... I always think tat ppl dun bother abt me, but seriously i noe there are stil ppl concern abt me, juz tat im greedy, hhahaa, always feel tat is not enuff..
But, thinking it back, do i worth ppls concern?
I dun think so , coz i juz feel tat, i dun worth it.... Im juz not gd
I'm a person who is born kaypoh, always run infront of others, If bad, will kana those arrows 1st... ...if gd is ying gai de.
hate, if i never have this attitude, tis actions, will there be ppl saying?
Frenz like to tell me abt their problems. im really happy coz i can lend them ears, maybe advice too. Den when i got problems, i seldom wanna pour out to ppl, coz thy have their own problems too, den i always think those rubbish thing, haha, is there a need to say out? No.?
Sincerity is the most impt issue as frenz. True frenz action all comes from the bottom of heart.
What i know is, even now, i feel like im alone, but im sure that im actually not.. I will digest all my problems and spread positives to all my frenz. i think that wil be a better way. No point telling someone abt my things, coz 1person vexed can le, dun make others vexed too. (^_^)
Counting down to 20 July(My Birthday & A promise i told my fren) Time is impt for me now. Left arn 3mths. Will determined my future route... Hope i can make it.. Mus Jiayou..
Hope all my frenz also can strive for wat u all want. Really noe wat u all want in life. Time is precious ya!
A fren told me: Do u find difficulties in opportunities? Or Do u find Opportunities in Difficulties?
I LOVE EUU. 11:03:00 PM
