? Sunday, May 22, 2011
What is love?
commit? accept? change? trust? communication?
Afterall, i still unsure hw to define love
Sweet, bitter, ups n downs.... Tiring
Sometimes i wish i can really let go, let go of everything. BGR is simply a too tiring 'thing' to me. Im not a gd player in this.
We mus adapt n adjust to each other, in every forms. Why mus we do this?
i tot life shud be very simple. I breath, i live.
Actually life is not as simple as we think.
Everything we do affect ppl arn us.
Sigh~ I'm really really really tired. Dont feel like gg on anymore.
Right now i jus wan to be alone, all by myself. do things i wan.
i wan to be happy every moment of my life. i wan to forget abt everything
Reality is so 'evil'
Work is stressing me alot, affecting me alot alot. Now im over-going a stage of almost mental breakdown. who can help me? I guess no one. only i can get myself out of this "shit"
Love... worst. my so-called dear, im find tat im quite selfish ar. he did alot for me, but i jus duno y i cannot seems to really give him 100% patience n understanding.
Y i can give strangers/friends 100% but not him.
Am i taking him for granted unknowningly? Maybe Yes
Quite unfair to him.
Currently i feel tat we are not suitable to move on to the next stage. Problems not lies with him, but me...
i also duno why this feeling is so strong tat i dun wish to go on anymore.
i jus wan to be alone alone alone. can i ?
Can i really spend my life walking alone?
I dun wan to drag him down, coz i duno wat is love actually... cannot be unfair to others
Everything he do, i can see n feel is for the sake of our future.
Housing, marriage all burden lies on him
Should we continue ? or shall we put a end now?
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How to do to make myself change my thinking or clear my mind to let me think more simpler?
Relationship is the most difficult "thing" to handle in my whole life.
Oh god................. pls help
I LOVE EUU. 7:43:00 PM
