? Thursday, December 10, 2009
This week really a very emo week til now...
but of coz there is also some happy things also ^_^
Down~
Do everything also not smooth... Very tired sia...
Quarral,argue,kana fly plane, bluff etc... Really tmd sad
Quarral coz i too kaypoh AGAIN! omg, i jus can't change my kaypo-ness. which i really hate myself for being like tat.
Happen so many times, i stil cannot change, sigh~ really damm me.
How to change sia? the only way i can think of is, ppl always tel me- out of sight, out of mind. But..siao sia... immpossible for me to kip tis person out of sight... unless i die huh?
Hmm... after my kaypo towards the 1st person, next is my sis. faint.. AGAIN! i kaypo.. Early morning ask jes, today gt go work mah? she say ya. den i say oh! den y not u go apply fri leave. den u no nd every morning kip thinking dun wan go work or wateva.
In the end, me, out of hao xin(i noe she tired coz her coll kip geng MC, den throw all to her, all things she nd to settle herself) tel her, kana her say... -_-
Stil got wat... hmmmm for the time being for this wk i think tis affect me alot only bah.. bloody hell, i really dun like to argue at all! sigh~ the more i prevent, the more it will happen.. cry!
Actually i got think of some ways to solve my r/s between them, maybe can make it better... but i nd to sacrifies something sia.. shud i? shud i not?
Up~
Er jie like to gif me surprise sia.. i told her i wan go see dino~ but no one will wan go de, coz to my frenz, thy rather go shopping den go bird park see tis things. ~_~"
But i prefer to go sight-see all these things rather than go shopping...
Shopping is boring to me sometimes~
i prefer tourist attractions places like Sentosa, zoo, mueseum, bird park, crocodile farm, night safari, haw par villa(long time nv go le >.<), natural reserve walk walk, mt faber, etc etc... Wee!! wee!!
Last time i stil gt go take those pamphlets of s'pore tourist attractions sia, lols.. coz i wan to go visit all at least once or twice a yr lo :D wakkkakaka
intially she nv tel me at all she purchase the tix, until dinner time she gif me dino postcard(now tgt wif my bed de kitty displays area) and then the tix.. lols, i see liao abit shock dao~
i say say only, nv really expect her go buy sia.. although i like to go, but i scare she bored, coz i nv heard b4 tat she will go these places de...
Happy! coz can go see new things le, gt ppl pei me go le.. wakakakaa
Down~
today suddenly went down again sia... gt ppl put me plane, den my work all abit jam diao~ worst part is i cannot chat wif jie sia. OMG! :(
Everytime i gt things, i will straight tell her de, but chat spoilt diao~ we cannot link to each other. faint... jes also nv online, crY~
Den suddenly all the past few days de things, all come back to me.. flash back, suddenly feel lost diao... Can stare at my outlook for few mins, den duno wat to do next. zzz
Jie say chat in email. i almost wan cry out... siao de, she so busy, whre gt time reply me email. no one is there to let me pour my things out.. ma de, make me feel like crying.. but cannot sia, cry outside, malu dee~ cannot let other ppl see.. *shy*
But bottle too long de things, if i nv relieve out, i will do something very siao.. I rmb (nt tat sot actually): last time work sales n marketing, suddenly i feel very emo, duno becoz of wat thing happen~ i wan to share wif someone(dajie i think), but can't find tat person to say... den i jus left office w/o a word.
Tat time my fellows coll blur diao, kip ask me come back, but i ignore.. jus kip walking out...thy called many times, i nv pick up. sms alot also.. i ignore til certain time, den i reply them... then thy come find me. ~_~
I noe is a irresponsible action, but whn i can't think thru, tats wat i do.. tats y ppl like to say me siao-_- LIke some ppl saying: whn ppl go siao, u can never expect wat thy will do..
Today i also wan walk out of my office de, den ask for urgent time off, but in the end i nv... i went toilet to cool dwn~
Arn 4plus, er jie come back le.. finally~ lols, suddenly feel so happy, coz can tel her things liao... but whn i wan say, suddenly duno wat to say liao.. haha i stil tel her too late le, i cry out liao..
Cry=flow my tots out... but of coz wil stil feel not gd la, at least better than i alone..
Suddenly i realise, wah sey, i too used to be wif er jie, if she suddenly not arn, i feel so lonely sia... not becoz whn she is arn gt ppl pei me chat..
even if she nv chat, busy. but stil in the conversation, i'll feel much an xin..
Hmmm... same feeling like, whn at nite, i slp, jes bed is empty, haven come back, tat type of feeling lo.. unsecure feel.
Up~
Gg to aunty hse soon~ wee~!! she so nice, kip ask me wat i wan for lunch, can eat at her place. wakkakkaa... REally looking forward to tat lo, coz can mit wif her, tricia, jie. keke, i really enjoy gg out wif them~ **clap clapp wee!!**
No matter wat, i still love those ppl i love, do the work i need to do... I think i shud change myself to suit into the enviroment, rather than expecting ppl to suit to my expectation bah~
ps: wo bu yao arguements liao, no gd, i dun like i wan everyday everyone happy happy jiu hao ('(oo)') MoOoooO~~~ haha
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