? Sunday, October 25, 2009
Mood today:
Afternoon (happy)--->> evening(happy)---->>> nite(sad)
@1pm, started to do something.. need patience n eye sight, focus den can complete de work. Hmm... got 2parts need to do, so frm arn 1-3. i finish the 1st part. Den rest watch tv. den 5pm start to do again... Finally finish at 6pm. But... i accidentally cut the wrong portion, den whole thing fall apart. Then, i need to re-do again... Finally complete liao, but end result is abit weird. I stil thinking wan to pass to tat person anot. Or shud i make it til more suceed le den pass to tat person? ***wondering*** I kip looking at the thing every now n then, trim, amend, ask for opinion... hmmm...... i stil thinking of gg out tmr find more material to do until i succeed... will tat be more sincere? *Never say die* (ps: will upload pic once the gift is being give)
Log in @ 6pm coz jie gt lp. So jus let soul stone at lobby, i continue to do. Then jie say play tgt assist in gaining pts. Den ok, jus play tgt ^_^ PLay till can start lp le! After much d/c thingy of her cpl, i stand in play for the lp. Was quite stress de, so many ppl watching, plus, is my 1st time(since the 1st day i play audi) playing lp... **shy** successful lor. So relieved phew~ OMG~ my 1st time gif to jie ***shy*** wakkakakaa!
Den arn 10pm, went to cpl compy. Actually also abit stress, coz is my 3rd time go cpl compy, i think~ But overall is really fun :D
After compy. i waited.. den _ tel me go play. den i ask y. _ say no mood play. i was like huh? y suddenly so fast no mood le, before gg compy, everything is well de. When compy, i was still happily think ya~ can go earn dens liao, but... sigh. really sad, why mus becos of some reasons, become moody/emo... At tat pt, i was really sad n disappoint. Then i log off le...
Duno issit i kaypo or wat... Im unhappy whn ppl's mood is being affected by game? Is it really impt? Impt than everything? So affected tat can make u forget abt others' ppl feeling? I really duno. Maybe im also one of tis kind bah.. Emotional dee =(
Think back now, everytime i tell myself, dun be so kaypo of ppl's wateva stuff. Im not their who also. i kip remind myself the same thing. Dun poke my nose into others' ppl business. But but... say is easy. being kaypo is born inside me. How to remove it? Sigh~ I know i gt tis character... Many times, becos of my kaypohness, i always quarral wif sis... Even sis also wun listen sometimes, why shud others listen to me? Haiz...
Whn conflict occur, it will sour the relationship between me n tat person and really affect myself at times (.~_~.)
But..... im jus being concern, especially towards my close ones... Really no harm de...
Sometimes i hold back my tots, jus to maintain a gd relationship. But.... seriously, im a direct person. I will choose to voice out... Deep in heart, i hope to let them noe (if not close to me de, i dun even bother to care n say so much...)
There's a saying : 旁觀者清， 當局者迷。。。
The word tat carve in my mind is CHERISH.
I still love those ppl i love, dote those ppl i always dote, respect those ppl whom i respect...
Towards them, I won't change, unless, my brain kana crash, memory all gone... =x
PS: Muacks my frenz! Especially for _ <3 Don't be emotional <3
I LOVE EUU. 12:30:00 AM
